My Seonsaengnim Idol (My Teacher Idol)

43 : Magic Shop

Best Music Match: Magic Shop

Jungkook's

As she began to lean her face in front of me - crying, I began talking some funny things around but it only made things worse - the Jin technique is not really working me. I've really got no magic -

She suddenly lifted her head up and wipe up the tears completely around her face. Shocked, I have no clue what to do or either say next - she's back to being a cold hearted girl with no guts and glory on her face.

Feeling her vibe - she only looked blankly towards the beach as we both hear the ocean waves crashing to the shore. I felt the cold breeze around as I see Nari looking tired and having zero energy left - she tucked herself back in and did nothing.

What do I got?

I pulled in the chair back again and sat beside her. With all the confidence left on my soul, I strike the conversation and said "I have no right to ask this. I have no idea what happened in the past. But, does it still hurt?"

"My father was my whole strength. And then one day, he was gone - my parents were gone" She implied "I am not worthy of my life"

"How can you say that?"

"How can you easily say that?" she countered.

"Everyone has a purpose in their life. Someone needs you in the world, how can you say that you're not worthy?"

Nari blankly stated "I don't have any purpose"

"Is that why all your furnitures and photo frames are broken from there?" I pointed from behind

"I have a tendency to mess things around when I break down - I lose control ever since my dad was gone"

"I see" I sighed "I have no control of that. But I can help with handling your emotions"

"Mwo?" She said

"I know, I - don't have the right to say this, but regrets? revisiting what you didn't do well, it won't help you. The past is in the past. Why don't you try to be a big person with a big heart? Move on and keep moving forward. I'm sure if you're parents were still both alive, they'd be sad to see you like that"

"Easy for you to say because you're Jeon Jungkook. The Golden Maeknae of BTS" She responded.

My eyes widened as she certainly knew who I was. I wonder what she knows about me - about BTS. But how come she's not even mesmerized with my presence?

I have a few thoughts coming more into my mind but I'd rather have this normal conversation with her - I wouldn't want to break this - never, not now.

I held on the edge of the chair and looked deep from afar "It's not easy to be Jeon Jungkook of BTS. Sometimes, I also wish to be normal young adult - like anyone else. Most of the times, I wonder about the people of my age. What are they doing? Are they living the life want to be? Are they having the job they wished to have? What are they goals? What can I do for them? How can I be a better Jeon Jungkook for them?"

"It feels a bit weird for me that you think those kinds of things, should'nt you be happy? You're successful. Anyone would wish to be in your place"