My Seonsaengnim Idol (My Teacher Idol)

4 : Busted

- V -

After a few minutes of napping, my phone finally alarmed. It felt really good to take a quick sleep especially when you had a bad time for some reason. Do you agree with that? Well, that thing works for me, apparently. 

Without thinking twice, I sat straight from my bed and do some a little bit of stretching to get started. There's really a different and unexplainable kind of feeling each time you wake up. Like you still want to go to bed but the adult life is calling you ahead. So now, you're stuck and can't decide if you're going back to bed or just move on with life. But — me? Do I even have a choice?

I finally get up from my bed and tried fixing my hair in the mirror. I was about to open the door when — I heard a few noises outside the room. I placed my ear at the door in secretly listening to their chat.

"Are you okay now Jin?" I heard someone saying. 

It seems like Jin is back to his natural state again. For sure, it might be because of RM saving the day — again. Well, what do you expect?

I paced closer towards the door and open it up a little bit until I discerned Jin saying "Seriously you don't know it?" 

This time, I feel anxious about what they are talking about. So, to let them continue conversing without getting disturbed, I tried to sneak out of the room quietly. And right after that, I heard Jin saying "You don't know anything about Eun-a?

My heart pounded so fast — that I wanted to throw everything in front of me. I want to shout in front of Jin's face and punch him straight  from his back. I wanted to scream. Why were they talking about Eun-a? Behind my back?

"Eun-a?" I uttered, "What about Eun-a?" I added while leaning towards the side of the wall. 

Everyone was surprised that I was standing behind them. "How long have you been there?" Jin questioned

"Does that matter?" I replied with a blank face. 

Again, everyone can't believe that I heard what they were talking about. They were just sitting and standing still from their positions more like — trying not to do something more. But I guess, it's too late. I can feel the pressure running in my veins and in my blood. Yet, I'm trying to control myself and remain calm. 

I move towards the living room area and sit in front of all of them. I noticed an apple on top of the table and immediately grab it to eat. "So, what's with Eun-a?" I asked again

"Tae. It's not what you're thin—" RM said. 

I simply glanced blankly at RM trying to convey a message to him.  Then — Jungkook promptly said "Suga is asking who is she" 

"I'm sorry V. I was just curious. Imagine? Among all the boys, I don't know who Eun-a is? I mean that's crazy" Suga mentioned.

"What do you want to know about her?" I pondered 

From here, I know all them wanted to stop me. Seriously? I've never felt this angry in my whole life. But — at some point, Suga needs to know it. Maybe, now is not just the right time for him to ask me. I can still feel everyone rolling around my veins — pain, anger, sadness. Ugh. 

I eyed to all of them, wanting to ask Who started this? But then, I saw Jungkook's and Jin's eyes went big. Perhaps, they also didn't know that I would say that in return. If what they are thinking is correct, it's the first time that I'm going to open up this topic again. But unfortunately, I'm not...

Cutting out the silence, Suga initiated "Anything you want. I would be okay with that" 

I stopped eating and dropped the apple back to the table. I moved up and head straight to Suga saying "Good. 'Cause I don't want to talk anything about Eun-a. Ever again"

You may think that I'm a coward and foolish for behaving for such kind of matter. But it's been years since I've thrown that memory away from me. Anyone who wanted to know Eun-a makes me feel that I am worthless. She was already a part of my past that will never come back again to life. If there's one thing that I would want to do right now; that is to erase her in my memories. 

I walked out of the room and head down straight to the building. Now, I've got nowhere to go.

Maybe, just go to a convenience store and buy something to get refresh? Well, yea — I'll do that. I have a few things that I also need to buy so going there would be great. But before that, I need to check on the list on the things that I'll be buying. 

So, I pat on my pocket to get and my phone, and then I realized something. I forgot my phone. I remembered leaving it atop of my bed, just moments after waking up a while ago. What a crazy time to feel alive — and mad. 

It's funny how things go in an unexpected way.  "Wew, Tae, Tae, Taeeee. You are really a smart guy" I said to myself while looking all the way up to the building. Should I go up again and get my phone? Hmm — No. 

From there, I pat my pocket once again and felt grateful that I have some money left. This is Great — Probably enough to what I need.  I cheered. So, whatever thing or foods that this money can go, I'll just go for it. 

Fast forward to me lazy walking down the streets and walking a few meters away from I hub, I finally see the store where I must say — can refresh me for a while.

Just like an ordinary citizen in Korea, after finding all the things that I need, I moved to the counter to pay. Though — it's strange that there are no people at the store. No one but me.  I mean, I'm sure that this area is pretty urbanized. Securities might be tight because lots of artist stay in here, but it should have at least — a number of people. 

Hmm, why am I even thinking of that? Maybe that's a good thing? It's also for me to be safe — although it's only 10-15 mins away from our pad. Not like if you're running, you can do it for like 5 mins — running on a marathon I guess?

Ahhh — I have so many thoughts running into my mind. 

I put the basket on top of the counter and then out of nowhere, I sneezed. Yep, that kind of loud like a bomb sneeze. But this time, I'm aware so — I immediately covered my mouth and said "Mianhae". The lady at the counter responded "It's okay. Is this cash or... card?" 

"Oh, Cash," I said while trying to get the money out of my pocket. 

While I'm counting my money, I noticed the cashier lady was practicing saxophone music on an app. It's quite amusing though. I thought she was trying to do some work around the store but it seems that she only wants to do something else. Best employee award goes to this lady — heh.

"You're practicing saxophone on your phone?" I giggled.

"Uhm yes" She responded — not having any eye contact with me. Looks like she's too much focused. 

"Ahh," I grinned 

Looking like I don't care — yet curious — at all, I nodded and put on out the products from the basket. Though, at this point, I wish she could just help me do this kind of things because I'm a customer — you know? But then, as I thought of this, the lady finally stood up and looked straight into my face.

Oddly, we did nothing but glanced at each other for about three minutes. So I guess something's really weird going on this store — maybe, that's why there's no one visiting here because of this poor witchy angry type cashier lady stationed here. 

And so, I decided to cut out the silence by saying "Do you need anything? Ms?" 

 Out of nowhere, She suddenly grasped her mouth while her eyes went big. 

"V?" She questioned while pointing me.

"What?"  I whispered to myself.

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