My Seonsaengnim Idol (My Teacher Idol)

44: Purple Haired JK

Author's Note: Very Long Chapter Ahead 

Nari's 

Everything seems to be fast. But either way, I'm okay with. I'm fine with it. This was the first time that I was able to finally become myself and be with a person who isn't even judging every single piece of me. Right after my parent's were gone, It felt like the whole world crashed upon me. 

To me, it felt like I was alone and I've got nothing else to talk to. I know, I know deep down inside, Jin Hye has always been there ready to comfort me, but I am not willing to accept her kindness as I am that fragile. I promised myself that I won't even depend my life on someone else's again. But here I am, it's once happening. 

I have never felt home like this before, I have always searched for someone who can comfort me, the way I wanted to be comforted. It's fairly hard to sometimes think that I am alone in this world. Who will take care of me, if that day comes? Will someone cry for me? Will someone cherish what I did here or what I did for them?

Those thoughts have continuously running through my mind, apparently until now. But, not that I can only think of you. Who accepted my flaw, who didn't think twice to stay with me even when I'm not feeling me. Who stayed when I said I needed them the most.

Not until I met you.

Appa, Eomma, Mianhae. 

Jungkook, is the most precious thing for me - right now. 

 I wandered as I stroke his hair, sleeping on my life.

 Never let me go, because I won't. I hope this day would never end. But I know the universe can never promise that, so, I'll just lay down here with you and think of this moment as a one good memory, because I know, the next day, things will be normal and different again.

"Mianhae, Jungkook, Mianhe"

A tear left down on my cheek as I kissed Jungkook's forehead. 

- The Next Day - 

After all the thoughts that I have imagined last night, and the memories we had together in every corner of my house, I wasn't expecting him to stay for a longer time. As I woke up to where we were both sleeping, I was right. He left. 

But what should I even expect? A big star won't have any serious relationship not until they reach 30's - at least that's what Aera told me. So, what to expect with Jungkook? I know he has a lot of girls around his environment. And I can say that I cannot reach some of their levels, their too high for me to reach - and too impossible for me to catch. 

But I do, I do wish that last night won't still be the "last night" that we'll be able to see each other. I hope that it'll be just the beginning of something knew, although we we're just friends. It's certainly fine with me. The thing is, when you are in the world and business of showbizz, expect to have a lot of "One Night Stands"

I do warned myself even before that thing happened, and I knew what was about to happened. But here I am, expecting a "Jeon Jungkook" of BTS, would rather stay with me until this morning and cook for me some breakfast - because they say, Jungkook is a good cook as well like Jin. Meh ~ how I wish I'll be that girl that he'll be able to cook some meals.