hug || sunsun (discontinued)

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Sunghoon saw red in his sleepy vision, opening his eyes and then squinting at the direction it was coming from. It was morning, he had slept through the night without any internal tremors. He didn't recall having a window at this side of his room though-

Oh right. 

He had been disowned the night before.

The realization came crashing down on Sunghoon, hurting him much more than it had the night before. He hadn't realized the severity, the serious actuality of yesterday's events.

'I've just lost my family, haven't I?'

No more making his parents proud, no more coming home to the parents he thought loved him.

Why was this hurting him so much more now? Sunghoon thought he would resent and absolutely hate his parents for what they did to him. It was indeed horrible parenting on their part. But then again, he was still their son, and they were still his parents. The feeling of longing to be praised, loved, and cherished by them still lingered.

As much as he hated it, Sunghoon still loved his parents, and that's what kept his heart in a sorrowful pain. His chest stung horribly, tears silently making their way down the boy's cheeks and onto his pillow. 

Wait, his pillow?

Not his pillow.

Sunoo's pillow. He was staying at Sunoo's house right now.

The sudden remembrance of his whereabouts made Sunghoon realize that Sunoo himself was actually sleeping right next to him, curled into a fetal position. His black mop of hair was messily strewn across his own pillow as he began shifting, a few more sleepy grumbles emitting from his figure.

Sunghoon wiped his stray tears quickly, making sure that his tense upset wouldn't be sensed by the younger's sharp intuition of feelings.

The sunlight was only just starting to pour in, so he decided to check the time. It was 6:22 AM, so Sunoo and him could possibly sleep in for a few hours longer, right? He raised his arm above Sunoo's face, blocking the rays of light from reaching it. And while it did stop Sunoo's squirming, his arm was already becoming sore within the first five minutes of it's positioning.

There had to be some other way for him to make sure Sunoo wouldn't wake.

And as if Sunoo could hear him, the boy rolled onto his other side, facing Sunghoon with a close proximity. Sunghoon could feel Sunoo's light and now calm breath fanning over his face.

Pink dusted his cheeks in an instant, eyes widening even though he was still a bit sleepy. Was Sunoo trying to make him combust, even if he was in a slumber? It was too early for this, too early for his poor fluttering heart.

However, this time Sunghoon didn't feel the burden on his chest while thinking about their closeness. He no longer desired the approval of his parents regarding his sexuality, and it was a freeing feeling. To know that he didn't feel so much guilt over feeling more than the norm for his cute best friend.

A sudden idea made itself present in his mind, and now wouldn't go away.

More color spread across his already rosy face. No, he couldn't. He was still just friends with Sunoo, what if the boy thought he was being weird and trying to overstep?

The voice that usually lingered negatively in the back of his mind returned, but with a less horrid tone to it.

'Sunoo's gay too you idiot. The old geezers aren't here to stop you, so what really is? Just think of it as friendly cuddling after a traumatic night if you're such a pussy.'

Sunghoon cursed the voice for being right. He could very much pass it off as friendly skinship.

Forgetting his usual morals and finally going with his instincts, Sunghoon snaked his arms around Sunoo's waist, letting his legs slowly tangle with the younger's. His heart was racing at his actions, but there was no going back now.

It seemed that Sunoo's subconscious detected the new source of body warmth, and pursued it. His face nuzzled itself against Sunghoon's chest, making the boy panic internally at the thought of the younger possibly hearing the chaos that was his heartbeat. Sunoo's arm slipped itself next to his chest, and then his fingers curled up against the material of Sunghoon's shirt, playing with it idly.

Sunghoon could practically squeal, screech, or scream at just how cute Sunoo's sleeping habits were turning out. How much of an idiot had he been for always turning his back to Sunoo during their sleepovers? Who knew that shunning his feelings like this would make him realize just how much he was missing out on.

The boy pulled the almost abandoned comforter up with his foot strength, sighing in satisfaction when it had been tugged up just enough to cover the pair.

A familiar drowsiness took over the rapid pace of Sunghoon's heartbeat as he took in Sunoo's calming scent. Soon enough, he had been mostly lulled to sleep in the quiet room.

He eventually fell victim to the sweet internal lullaby with the teddy bear of a boy in his arms,

how unfortunate he missed the sleepy giggle that arose from next to him by a millisecond.

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i went to a dinner today in the evening, as soon as i got back she put me in a shitty ass mood. i pulled through, though, and managed to finish up this chapter with fluff :)

sometimes you have to be strong and deal with things yourself by waiting out your meltdowns.

- abby <33