Solace in my heart

Helplessness

He will regain conscious in a while, don't worry too much and please, I don't want to scare you guys, but it's better to take him to psychotherapy as soon as possible, it's going to take time, but even though the healing process is crucial, it needs to be done!

"Thank you doctor."

Namjoon was sitting beside Jin and wiped his tears,he never wanted to hurt his friend but he ended up hurting him and he hated himself for that.

"Baby he is going to be alright okay."

"Yeah exactly Joonie I know my son he is strong, he is going to be alright okay."

Both the moms tried to console scared Namjoon while their dad's sighed and went outside.

"Sung ho... honestly how did this happen?"

"I wish I knew woo sik...but I don't even know"

Sung ho started tearing up and broke down in front of his friend.

"Sung ho!!" Woo sik held on to him while he cried on his chest,Woo sik slowly pat his head,his friend was not the one to cry even with many hardships but this time it was different,he was broken and Woo sik hated to see his bestfriend being hurt."

Sung ho wiped his tears.

"I wish I held on to him before he went to the USA but all I did was push my only son out just because he was gay." Sung ho started tearing up again

"Sung ho...it's not like this will happen to him for life right..once the counselling starts everything will be alright okay?.."

"I really wish...and the day he is able to touch us I am going to hug him and not let him go anywhere."

Woo sik slightly smiled at his bestfriend.It hurt him a lot too to see Jin being helpless,for him Jin was like his other kid.He was the third person to hold Jin when he was born and it felt like his own kid is suffering.

"I really hope, he will be cured soon."

"I hope so too." Woo sik took Sung ho inside the house.

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"Eomma and Ajumma you'll go and eat I will look after Jinnie."

"No, Joonie we will stay here..I am not even hungry anymore, Ji won you go eat.I'll stay here."

"No, we will eat, Joonie can stay here with Jinnie...come let's go."

"But-"

"I know you so well Sunny you'll probably go on a hunger strike until Jin wakes up and I am not letting you or Sung ho oppa starve."

"You're the best donsaeng ever you know that right?"

"Yeah yeah enough with the buttering come..Joon take care of him and don't destroy him too thanks."

"Ya eomma he is not the window at our house."

"Yeah but then you're so clumsy that you might end up doing something."

Kim sun smiled lightly, even tho she was hurt that her son was going through a lot, when she saw Namjoon and her bestfriend she felt better.

Kim Ji won took Kim sun's hand and led her out of the room.

Namjoon was looking at Jin...every muscle in his body wanted to touch his Jinnie,but of course he couldn't,he hoped that some guy will come and cure him and corner of his heart hoped it was him.

Namjoon mentally slapped himself.

"Why would I think about sharing my life with him? Am I crazy or what?" He thought.

His eyes slowly closed and he drifted off to sleep next to Jin.

He was woken up by a loud sound and sounds of screaming.

He saw Jin shivering,whisper screaming and was heavily breathing while clunching onto his sheets. Namjoon panicked.

"Jinnie!! Jinnie!!" Namjoon couldn't handle it anymore so he started shaking the boy and tried to wake him up,he knew it might lead to something more but he had to wake him up.

"No!! No!! Please Let me go,please!!"

"Jinnie what's wrong?" Namjoon satrted shaking him.

"Jin wake up Jin."

Jin started crying in his sleep and was talking in his sleep.

"Please!! don't rape me, please!! let me live,please!! I didn't do anything!!!"

Namjoon was so shocked that he sat on the chair.He looked at him trembling and almost screaming.

He couldn't stop his tears from falling and he couldn't keep it inside him anymore that he quickly took Jin's thin body and hugged him while Jin was still trembling and was talking in his sleep.

"Please!! I want to live,please let me go."

Namjoon held on to him tightly and rubbed his head while crying.

Jin's parents wanted to check on the boys but was stopped by Namjoon's parents.

"Let them stay like that for a while.."

" Sunny didn't Jin tell you anything about what happened in America?" Asked Woo sik

"No Woo sik oppa..and I don't want to ask him too, cus I am scared to."

"But you're his mom Sunny you have every right to ask him."

"I know Ji won but what if that topic affects him more?"

"Maybe she is right you'll might as well send him to a counsellor... slowly slowly when he let his feelings out everything will be alright."

"Yeah.." Ji won kept her hand on Kim sun's shoulder.

"Don't worry Wonnie,we will bring back our kid,we will cure him and we will make himvhappy again okay."

Kim sun nodded her head and hugged Kim Ji won and cried.

Jin woke up after a while and saw Namjoon hugging him,he was startled at first but realized that he didn't faint again...he was so shocked that he started hiccuping.

Namjoon woke up to the sounds of hiccuping.

"Oi Jin!! Wait wait i'll bring water."

Namjoon went towards Jin' s study desk and took the water and gave it to him.

"Slowly drink, slowly."

Namjoon tried not to touch Jin, Jin finished drinking water and Namjoon took it.He kept it on the table and went near him.

"I- I'll call Ajumma and Samchon okay."

Namjoon tried to leave when Jin caught Namjoon's wrist.Namjoon quickly turned and saw Jin holding his hand.

"Shit Jin don't touch me you'll...."

Jin looked at their hands together.

Namjoon was shocked to see Jin holding his wrist without fainting.

"Joon?..I can touch?"

"What the heck...OMG!!..wait wait...omg"

Namjoon loosed Jin's grip on him and he ran downstairs where the parents were.

"Eomma,Appa,Ajumma,Samchon!!!!"

"What?" They all exclaimed in unison.

"Jin is awake..and.."

"And what?" Woo sik and Sung ho got up.

"And he can touch me!!"

" What???"

They all ran upstairs in unison to see his son sitting on his bed still looking at his hands.

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I hope you enjoyed it!!!!!!
P.s. who saw Namjoon's selca?🙋🙋🙋