Solace in my heart

The Confession.

Jin woke up the sound of his alarm he was tired and his eyes were blood red after crying, he went inside his washroom and had a shower.

He went to the buffet, sat and started eating, he felt someone approach him but he ignored it. Jin was startled when he felt breath hitting his neck he looked back and saw Jackson staring at him with a look he couldn't recognize.

"Hey! Jinnie" Jin gulped.

"H-hey Jackson"

"How have you been?"

"I am fine"

Jackson came really close to Jin which made Jin tense.

"Well you're looking very- "

"Yah Hyung I swear to go I am going to beat this dumb muscle bunny"

"As if you can" Jungkook rolled his eyes, they looked at Jin as he wasn't responding and got startled when he saw Jackson being really close to Jin and Jin looking very uncomfortable about it, but since Jackson is their boss they couldn't say anything about it.

"Oh! H-Hello Jackson Hyung" Yugyeom spoke

"Hello.." He stared at them with irritation but nevertheless smiled.

"Hyung we will go.."

"No-"

"It's fine Jungkook and Yugyeom yall can stay here, I don't mind"

He smiled.

"Oh okay hyung" Jungkook and Yugyeom sat down with their food and looked at Jackson who was standing there. Jin looked at them looking at something and turned to see Jackson still standing there.

"Um Jackson you want anything?"

"No.. I was thinking how can someone look so beautiful..And so fuckable" He whispered the last words to Jin so the other two couldn't hear it.

Jin stilled with those words and looked at him with an angry stare, "Excuse me?"

"What?.. you didn't hear me?..I said how can someone looks so beautiful"

Jackson looked at Yugyeom and Jungkook, "Am I wrong? I mean your hyung is one of the most handsome faces we got right?"

"Yeah!" they mumbled.

"Anyways everyone get ready for the shoot okay?"

"Yeah sure!" They slightly smiled.

Jackson left, Jungkook and Yugyeom quickly jumped and sat next to Jin,"Jin hyung are you okay?"

"Yeah?..why are you asking?"

"I don't know why but Jackson hyung creeps me out" Jungkook spoke.

"Same" Yugyeom looked at Jungkook with a worried face and both looked at Jin who looked at them with a face filled with confusion and worriedness.

"Hyung I don't know why but I feel like you should stay away from Jackson"

"Same.. like I don't know why but I feel like I saw lust passing through his eyes"

"Calm down guys maybe it's nothing"

"Yeah maybe.. but stay away"

"Okay I will,I will.."

Flashback ended

If I listened to Jungkook and Yugyeom that day then...Jackson wouldn't have touched me and I... well would have been able to touch everyone.

Jin looked at Namjoon to see him crying. "Yah..why are you crying?" Jin hugged Namjoon and Namjoon started crying heavily, "I am sorry I really am- "

"Yah but you didn't do anything why are you apologizing to me?"

"Because if I was beside you when you told Ajumma and Samchon th- then you wo- wouldn't have had to go through all these" Namjoon spoke while crying.

"Aigoo don't cry small baby..and even if eomma and appa was okay with my sexuality still I would have been raped by Jackson you know"

Namjoon hugged Jin that Jin nearly lost his breath, "I won't let you go again an- and I wi- will kill that Jackson" Namjoon said while wiping his tears and snot on his face.

"Yah..you don't go around killing people like that..and also we can't do anything to him"

"Why not?"

"Because its Jackson..he is tangled by power and wealth he can buy anyone if he wants to"

"But he needs to be punished for what he did- "

"I don't want to get tangled in this mess Joonie"

"You were raped Ji-"

"Namjoon I said I don't want to get tangled in this mess"

Jin shouted to which Namjoon flinched.

"You know what..I don't even know, why I thought it was a good idea to tell you about it."

Jin got up and walked towards the door when Namjoon spoke, "You know what, you are a coward, a coward who can't even fight for himself and-"

Jin slapped him hard which shocked Namjoon he held his cheek and looked at Jin who had red eyes and breathed heavily, "You are right, I am coward..That is why I got raped and I am coward and that is exactly why I couldn't even tell my bestfriend that I have been loving him for 9 years, yes I am a coward what are you going to do about it? Huh?" Jin came dangerously close to Namjoon.

Namjoon looked at Jin with a shocked face and Jin realized what he said he looked down and tried to control his anger, frustration and embarrassment he looked at Namjoon again and walked away.

Namjoon sat on the floor and hugged his knees and he felt tears running down his face, "Jin loves me" that's all he could think and after a while he fell asleep.

*****

Just to clarify that even tho the flashback was shown, Jin didn't tell Namjoon about the fact that he loves him until the last minute, when he was called a coward and he burst out on Namjoon.

Thank you!!

Stay safe Kiddos!!

Shai 🐥💜