Entanglement Series: Of Firsts

It's Not Always Rainbows and Butterflies

Hey hey hey!!
Book one is almost complete!!!
I'm only half-way through writing book two, uuggghh.
Enjoy the fluff!!!

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Walking towards my room, I nervously bit my fingernails and paused right in front of the door. Then, before I could stop myself, I started pacing and I knew they could hear me. Luckily, they respected my need for space and waited for me to enter. Their reactions when I walked confused me until I remembered that I had just cut all of my hair off.

"What the fuck happened to your hair?!?" They yelled in unison.

I laughed sheepishly, running my fingers through it.

"Do you like it?" My mumbled question caught them off guard and, luckily for me, they knew how to read the room. I was a nervous ball of energy and it showed.

"I mean, it's really sudden but you pull it off well." Shinsou muttered, elbowing Bakugo before he could voice a stronger opinion.

"Right. Okay. So, I may have had a small breakdown and cutting my hair was a cathartic release. It was on a whim but I could literally feel the anxiety leave my body with every snip. Mina evened it out for me."

Nodding, they sat on the futon and allowed me to go at my own pace, not pressuring me to get to the actual issue.

"The thing that set me off was... how I was feeling about you two not being virgins. Before you interject, just... let me explain my thought process."

I started pacing again, shooting them furtive glances. Bakugo held up a water bottle and I took it gratefully, gulping half of it down in one go.

"Take your time. I'm not really in tune with my... softer side but I've been reading up on communication between soulmates. This shit is important."

My eyebrows shot up and he just shrugged, trying to make his dedication seem less serious than it actually is. I blushed and glanced down at my shoes.

"It's like this. We all knew we had soulmates from a very young age. We all start to feel the drawbacks at the same time. That being said, you both still chose to get into a relationship with someone who wasn't one of us. It makes me feel like a second option or like I've been cheated on. I can't help how I feel, it's just how my brain is making this all connect right now and it just feels so wrong! How would the both of you feel if I said I'd been sleeping around or dating guys even though they weren't you?"

Shinsou buried his face in his hands, slumping over his knees with a groan.

"When I think of you being with someone else, I get really angry."

His whispered confession was wrought with anguish, clearly understanding what I was feeling. Bakugo nodded his agreement, a very confused look on his face.

"I agree with that sentiment and I get why you're so fucking confused about it all. But I can't say I would be mad at you. I think I would be mad that I missed out on getting to have those memories with you. Fuck. Ren, I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking with the right head at the time."

I nodded at their responses, feeling like we were all on the same page.

"Good. Now you understand the strange situation I'm in. I don't want to hold the past against either of you but I just have to come to terms with it all."

"We understand and, if it makes you feel better, I'm pretty sure guys are just way more stupid than girls. We let our dicks lead just as much as our brains, maybe even more so. We are sorry."