Down Below (S4S)

Chapter 14

Jazz POV

I looked down at her and she looked up at me with that hint of innocence in her face. Not only innocence, but it's something more in that look. I don't even think she realizes that she's doing this; or what it's doing to me. I don't even understand what it's doing to me.

I never got to admire her features, I've never realized how 'perfect' she is. We were staring into each other, we've never been this close. A tear streamed down her face, and I couldn't help but to wipe it off her skin slowly. She looked down at my lips and back into my eyes.I felt my heartbeat pick up in speed. "Fuck." I whispered as I turned around, and I attempted to get out of the room as fast as I could.

I'm not going to do it. I've never liked anyone before. Don't get it wrong, I've dated many girls, but I've never liked them. Does that make sense? Shit, I know I don't and won't like Asia, but I don't want to take any chances. I'm not going to ruin everything.

I was speed walking down the halls. I had no idea where I was planning on going, if I was going to go to the next class or if I was just going to leave. I was just talking and asking myself things in my head, I didn't even notice that I was in reality. I crashed into my little sister, snapping me back into it. I looked down at her. I noticed her red-tinted eyes, puffy under eyes, and the glow in her face that she gets after she's been crying.

It hurt to see her hurting. My little sister is the only exception for me - the only being I'd die for. Even if I've never shown it directly, we both know that I would kill for her. It's been like that since birth, and it won't change. But I also always knew that she wouldn't do the same for me, because the loyalty isn't mutual. She doesn't remember anything that we've been through and what I've got her out of, she was too young.

I took a look at her again, but once I realized why she was crying, anger shot all throughout me. "How could you?" I asked her before speeding past her. Ashanti chased after me, "How could I what?? Why are you mad??"

I abruptly turned around and began yelling, "You seriously don't know what you did?" She furrowed her eyebrows, then quickly looked down. I continued, "Why the fuck would you get back with him?? After what he did to you? After I had to find and see what he did to you? You deadass!?" A tear fell from her eyes and onto the ground, but I didn't stop. "Do you not wake up to that scar on your neck every morning? You think I ain't notice? How can you get back with him- Shit even talk to him! After I had to-". She looked back up at me and cut me off, "I'm s- sorry." Her voice was breaking, and my heart hurt.

"Sorry ain't enough Tee." I said to her softly, as I turned around and left her. The silence hurt. I walked all the way to the corner of the courtyard. I sat on the ground against the cement wall. I grabbed the blunt from the back of my ear and started smoking.

At the end of the school day, I noticed my aunt picking up Ashanti and Asia from the back of the school. Wow, I guess I know I'm definitely not the favorite. I had to walk back home, making a stop to the Chick-Fil-A in front of the school first.

I ordered a frosted coffee, sat in a booth and listened to music for a little. I eventually got fed up with the people around me, and ended up going home.

I shifted around my pocket looking for the house keys. As I put the key in the doorknob, the door pushed open automatically. The door was open, weird. I walked in and closed the door. I noticed Ashanti, Asia and my aunt sitting on the couch. No one was talking though.

I looked at Asia but quickly shifted my glance to my aunt. She sighed and began speaking, "Jasmine, sit down." I placed my bag on the floor and took a seat, sipping on the last bits of my frosted coffee. "What happened? Why are y'all all quiet?" I laughed. They all looked at me, they looked at me with a sense of guilt, a sense of sorrow and remorse. My aunt looked at me, "Ayah passed away last tuesday." My face immediately turned into a stone-cold expression. "Ayah? Ace? What happened to her?" I asked, but they all remained silent, avoiding eye contact with me. I chuckled, "Y'all gots to be fucking wimme."