jungkook has a hard time dealing with his past...then he meets taehyung....but you know, a mere boy won't fix all his problems, right?
Taehyung finds out his boyfriend's true colors in the worst way possible, but he just wants to love.....maybe that...
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Taehyung's POV:
"Baby, are you okay? What did she say to you?" Jungkook asked concerned.
I tried to stop the hot tears from pitching down my cheeks, but they couldn't be blocked. Pushing past Jungkook I sat back down on my bed with wobbly lips.
"She called me a slut." I say.
"Excuse me?" Jungkook asked standing in front of Taehyung. "Why though?"
"I-I guess you." I sniffled.
"That's ridiculous." Jungkook said.
"Is it?" I asked.
"Huh?"
"I mean, we just got back together and-and the first thing we do is fuck. I don't know where you've been, who you've been with, what you've been doing other than drugs."
"Taehyung-"
"Oh my God we didn't use a fucking condom! Shit!" I yelled pulling at my hair.
"Taehyung calm down."
"How do you expect me to calm down! I might have contacted gonorrhea! Or, god forbid, HIV!" I yelled at Jungkook.
"Taehyung..."
"I turn 18 soon, and shit is still fucked up. I'm freaking out." I said. "This past year I have not been myself at all. Too busy trying to please those who want nothing to do with me."
"Taehyung I want everything to do with you! I L-" Jungkook cut himself off abruptly.
"You, what?" I asked softly."
"I..I want everything to do with you." He said in an off tone.
I know what he was going to say. It's obvious. I just don't get why he decided to cut himself off. Why'd he stop?
"No, Jungkook what where you going to say?" I asked.
"Nothing! It's pointless...Just a simple stutter." He said. I roll my eyes. That excuse was bullshit. I'm already upset and now he's pissing me off. "Come here babe." He tried embrace me in a hug but I put my hand on his chest stopping him from getting closer.
"No." I cross my arms and lay back on my bed turned away from him.
"Huh?" Jungkook seemed confused by my gesture.
"Why can't you say it?"
"S-say what?"
"'I love you.' Why can't you say that to me? Why won't you?We've been through so much together." I say trying not to cry more than I already have been.
He didn't say anything. The room was totally silent with the exception of my slight sniffles.
"I do." Jungkook said.
"You 'do?' What do you mean you 'do?'" I asked with an angry tinge.
"Babe you know what i'm trying to say."
"No, no i don't think i do. So tell me."
"I...I..."
"It's a 4 letter word how hard is it for you to say?"
"um.."
"Do you not have a reason to say it to me? Have I not give you one? 'cause I'm pretty sure we just fucked. Did that mean nothing?" I yelled. "You just said you want everything to do with me!"
"I'm scared."
"Of what!?" I asked frustrated.
"Of hurting you again."
"What does that have to do with saying you love me? Can't you see i'm already hurting? My mom just called me a whore the least you can do is say you love me!"
"I'm scared that I'll get bad again. That i'll lose control once more. I don't want to say I love you, then leave you." Jungkook wiped his tears.
"Then don't leave me!"
"I can't predict the future Taehyung! I'm terrified! Terrified of myself."
"You said you were getting help...going to therapy." I said quietly. "Were you lying to me?"
"No! I-I am getting help. I've been getting help."
"So you'll be fine. We'll be fine!"
"Taehyung..."
"Just say you love me. Just say it. Say it like you mean it. Say it like you're touching me for the first time. Say it like youre touching me right now. Love me like you touch me." I say clinging to his shoulders.
"I don't love you only to touch you." Jungkook said. I kissed his lips but he didn't kiss back, instead he held the back of my neck and pulled away.
