KUCH DASTAN (completed)

chapter 5

Another one week passed and things get more beautiful between them dadi also talks to shehnaaz nices though her aura didn't change a bit and shehnaaz's fear also didn't changed till now......
It's been night sidharth is busy in work there is some problem which makes him really restless....
He have not even come for lunch and dinner time is also over now....
Sana also didn't have lunch and dinner till now as she always wait for him.....
She is in ruchi's room... It's been passed 12 he have to come till now...
Sana said ruchi to sleep and she herself goes to their room....
But as she opens the room she saw everything was shattered in the room..
She enter and saw sidharth searching for something in the room.....
She is standing there to understand what is going on in the room....
When sidharth's eyes fall on her....
His's eyes were red vines were popping out totally showing that he is very angry.....
He with two long steps comes close to her and hold her arms tightly making her hitched in pain his hold is so tight for her soft body that it will surely leave marks..... 
Sh- tumne mari files kahi rakhi hai han.....
He said greeting his teeth....
S- kounsi.....file..... Fearing his tone
Sh- i am not finding my blue file.....
S- blue file... Vo to...waha.... Closet k drawer main hai.....
She said not understanding why he is getting this much angry.....
Sh- who said you to touch my things han.... Kisne bola ha.... ( he shout in him)....
She flinch in his tone this is the first time he is talking to her in such tone... Her eyes welled up in his tone....
Sh- i said to you... Han maine kaha tha tumha mari chize rakne ko to fir kayu hath lagaya han.... ( he is shouting on her)
His words were again awakening all the insecurity that somewhere is going away from her heart but again her heart comes there from where is was earlier.... She just kept quite actully she never tries to speak or give any explanation to anyone in her life... This is the problem that she never speaks for herself.....
Sidharth left her arms harshly making her flinch in pain...
He goes to the closet take the blue file and left from there without looking at mess he had just now created.....

Shehnaaz just wipe her tears and starts keeping all the thinks at their places....
She change her cloths and goes to the balcony....
She looks at the sky as looks the starts from childhood she always speaks her heart to those starts she thinks that her maa baba were looking at her through those starts....
S- maa baba i miss you... Pata hai main jab yaha ayi mujha laga mari zindagi khatam ho gayi hai mare sapne mujha apke sapne pura karne tha par sab khatam ho gaya par phir bhi sab acha lagne laga maa ruchi di dadi baba( sanjeeb ji) sab mujse acha bartab karne lage aor kahi na kahi main bhi lagne laga tha ki ye log mujha apna lenga.... Par aaj jo kuch bhi huwa usse mujha ek chiz to pata chal gayi hai ki shyad iss duniya main mare apna koyi nahi hai maa ruchi di bahut payer karte hai par vo bhi kab tak karenge jab koyi aor unke jaisi ah jayegi to shayad vo log bhi mujha bhul jaye... Kaya karu main maa.....
She said this and silent tears starts falling from her eyes.... She didn't know when she slept in the balcony....

Sidharth on the other hand goes to study and starts working after three hours he finally solve the problem....
He rest his head on the chair and close his eyes taking a breath of relief....
But suddenly a something stick in his mind...... Suddenly how he talk to shehnaaz few hours ago comes infront of his mind.... His heart starts beating faster guilt starts raising on his heart..
He immediately gets up from his place and runs to their room.....
As he enter he saw that the whole room is neat and clean his heart starts beating more faster.....
He looks around the  whole room but didn't find her... He was about go out when he saw that the door of balcony is open....
He goes to the balcony and saw that she is sleeping on the ghula.....
She is sleeping like a ball... Hugging her knees near her chest....
Face is pale dried tears were visible in her face showing how much she had cried.....
Sidharth goes near her..... His heart is feeling an ache watching her state...
He takes her in his arms very softly.... She is really soft infront of him and he didn't even feel wait while taking her in his arms....
He feels she actully needs to eat a little more.......
He take her to bed and make her sleep
While making her lie his eyes goes on the mark which is on her arms....
His eyes again turns into red due to guilt and pain.....
He goes towards the drawer and takes out the ointment and goes to her....
He sit beside her and starts putting ointment on her arm having red marks....
She hitch in her sleep... He with blowing air put tge ointment and goes to his side....
He takes her in his arms fully kiss her head.....
Sh(to himself)- everytime dam it everytime my anger ruined every dam think.... How can i even do this with her... She is so soft and i behave like a jerk with her.... Vaise hi she fears me like hell she even didn't talk to me freely and today i myself give her another reason to go away from me.... Don't know why i can't control my anger why....? No no.... I have to control my anger or else she is go away from me which i can't afford.....
Thinking of her going away is making him restless... He don't know how her presence in his life become this much important that now he can't even think of her going away.... He hug her more tightly as if assuring himself that he will never let her go....

Next morning shehnaaz weak up and find herself totally in his arms... This is usual for her to be in his arms coz he always sleep like this but after the thing happen she didn't think that he will come back at night.....
She with a lot of try finally comes out of his grip.... After the last incident she is really fearing to go close to him what if he leave her... She didn't want to expect anything from him... She will do her work and fulfill all responsibilities with a smile but she will not expect anything in return....
After making her mind she gets ready..
She is really hungry and weak as she is not having food from almost 24 hours.....
After keeping his cloths she comes down saw everyone already present there...
She directly goes to maa to help her in making nasta as maa always makes nasta coz lunch and dinner was prepared by cook but she want to feed her family atleast one time in a day....

In room.... When sidharth wakes up he saw the bed empty it's usual for him she always wakes up before him....
He immediately goes to washroom coming out he saw everything is ready...
He only want to saw her only want to talk to her apologize for his actions infront of her.....
After getting ready he comes down saw her helping the servants to ready the table for breakfast.....
He was looking at her standing at the stairs when he saw that she is looking pale and dull.....
Before he could understand....
She falls on the floor......
She become unconscious......
He is stocked to react....
He shout....
"shehnaaz"
And runs to to her...
Hearing him everyone comes in the dinning area....
Saw her unconscious.....

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Anika.....