I Dont Think I Could Stand To Be Where You Dont See Me [WMMAP, OC-Insert]

Dictionary, define 'fine'

To Eros, the unfortunate one;

it occurs to me that your sister will be like me.

A soul that live-.

A soul that die-.

Though I wonder, which letter will complete the sentence? which one is the one who remembers and which one is the one who experiences?

Anastasia, a person who was before your mother.

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To a lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely child;

Tell me, my darling, if I truly did love you, if I truly did care for you, would I have killed you as to give you mercy of not living in this cruel life? Or would I have attempt to give you the best of the best as for you to at least be fooled?

Honesty is irritating, don't you think?

Nyx, a role, a name given to me.

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To a person made from me;

Music, dance, art, theater, literature.

Beautiful.

Calming.

Addicting.

Tragic.

I hate them. I hate everything.

Oh, I adore them. Oh, how I love them so much that I would have kept on breathing for them.

Adwin Sagitara, a person who was before your mother,

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Eros swung his legs dejectedly on his swing. That particular one that was one of the few things he asked his Mother.

("Mother," Eros clutched his hand nervously. "Can I... um, is it okay if I-"

"Your highness, " Nyx warningly said, "Speak clearly or people won't consider you seriously. "

He straightened, clearing his voice. "I want a swing." Then winced. "I saw something like that in a painting and it looks fun. So, I want one."

His heart relaxed when he saw his mother give an amused smile. "A good reason for that. Alright," his jeweled eyes lit up, but as he was about to say his thanks, his mother said," you can have one in the Sapphire Palace. "

What? "The Sapphire Palace?" He questioned. "But mother, that's-"

He stopped himself when her smile turned dangerous. "Dear Eros, you will get a fun swing, but only when you're recognized as Crown Prince.")

A precious swing, to him it is, at the very least. But not for the reasons one would assume; a swing is enough to make any child giddy. To him, However, the reason was the same: it was from his mother. He would've wondered why Nyx insisted on having it built in the Sapphire Palace if he hadn't taught himself to question his mother too much. Nyx probably expected Claude to acknowledge him for the start.

His thoughts were interrupted by a little presence and Red hair.

"Your highness!" Eros looked up at Felix. "I was looking for you! Hah. Why is your swing so hidden from the rest of the Pa-"

"Tell me, Felix," Eros cut him off with distracted eyes that almost made the knight flinch. "Was my mother lovable?"

To his wonder, Felix answered with pained grey eyes and said, "She was a wonderful woman."

"Then,"Eros jumped down from the swing with flowered wines. "Is it wrong for me to wish that Diana won't be gone and be remembered as just 'a wonderful woman'?" Leaving him speechless, Eros walked away and turned when he didn't hear any steps from behind. "What are you standing there for? You went to find me for Father, no?"

This time, Felix followed and he, seeing the small form of platinum hair from a boy walking elegantly, he was reminded of the air that Nyx would always have around her.

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Today's the fourth session of Claude teaching Eros. It seemed as though he inherited both his father's and his mother's mana capacity and magical ability, judging by how he instantly mastered it as easily as breathing (how his mana shows his emotions annoyingly clearly wasn't counted).

"And then, there's the spell that lets you project memories of people into 'videos'."

"I want to learn that." He said, looking determinedly at Claude. "Please, Father, I want to record every memory I have of my mother. " That, he means true.

But, little did Claude know, his teachings were intended to protect the memories of a woman called Diana.

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He locked himself in the room filled with keepsakes of his mother again.

Sitting on the cold marble floor, with the letters that seem to hint on a 'massacre' that was 'predicted' by his mother, he frowned on the carelessness of it. By Eros' assumption, Claude will direct his anguish to the Ruby Palace's inhabitants, which to him doesn't bother him much other than the very obvious fact that not only is it filled with beautiful woman and, though scarce, a few men as well, there is also daughters of allianced kingdom given for either sacrifice masked with 'gift' or arrangement to show their support. Now, if Claude were to murder the ladies, it wouldn't cause much of a problem since Obelia can handle one or a little dozen offended rulers of minor countries, but still, it will be troublesome -for Eros and Felix, because the irritating Claude is planning to sulk in a drug called forgetment.

He sighed.

Eros will have to arrange escapes for the important members of the harem a few days before Diana's....

Before his little sister's birth. Yes.

Everything will be fine.

Everything is fine.

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Writer here;

Dealing with yourdepression with a therapist ❌
Writing a prince with mommy issues ✅

Ps. I did write most of this fanfic in the middle of breakdowns while listening to either mitski or the Banana Fish OST, Player X.