No Sound Without Silence

Chapter 1

Maybe you're wondering why I'm posting this again. Well, I wanted to get back into the mood so I decided to edit everything and continue writing this again. Plus, new cover! :)

First multi-chap fic after so long! And first OUAT-themed multi-chap too :) It just popped out of my head while I was on my way to somewhere I forgot and it just haunted me while I made my one-shots.

This happens after 4x 12 when Rumple still has control over Hook's heart. I hope you guys like it! Not much happening in this first chapter though :/

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Killian closed his eyes as he felt a tug in his...

He would have said 'in his heart' if it wasn't for his heartless state. He knew what it meant. Gold was summoning him.

He let his body do the work. Rumpelstiltskin may have his heart but he didn't have his mind. And he certainly didn't care about a single thing that could happen next. Not now. Not when he just lied straight to her face. Telling her that he had saved the day. Telling her that Gold had turned a new leaf. Telling her in words that felt like his but he knew wasn't his. Nobody knew that. Nobody except her. He hoped.

When she look at him with those sea green eyes full of concern, he felt bad. His mind told him that his chest ached, that tears stung his eyes, that he wanted to just hold her. But he couldn't feel it. He couldn't just do it. He couldn't do anything but just move his mouth to words that weren't his. Then she kissed him. He felt horrible. His mind told him he should feel the flutter in his chest, the loud erratic beating of his heart, the intensity of his love. Yet he couldn't. It made him want to just get away from everything. He wanted to shut himself out. He wanted everyone to forget him. He wanted her to forget him, to hate him. He wanted to just die.

He felt that tug again. Stronger this time. The Crocodile was persistent as ever. Well, it wasn't like he had a choice but to follow. He walked as fast as he could to get away from the diner, to get away from the people, to get away from her.

He knew he should be sad. His mind told him so. He couldn't feel it. Not one bit. Yet he knew he was. Sad. Angry. Guilty. Afraid. Not of the Dark One. He was certainly not afraid of the imp. He swallowed the lump that was forming in his throat as he watched them disappear into the diner. He was afraid of what would happen. He was afraid of what was to come.

The bell echoed in the seemingly empty shop. He rolled his eyes. Of course, Belle wasn't going to be there. The woman didn't have a single clue with what her husband had been doing and plotting. He felt really bad for her. Her husband was back to his old and evil ways. No. He never changed from the very beginning. He was always the same old Crocodile he loathed.

"How did it go, Captain?" Gold's voice came from behind the shop.

Killian pursed his lips and made his way across the shop, entering Gold's office. God, he wanted to punch that smug look off of his face.

"Let's just get this over with, Crocodile." He glared at the man in front of him.

Rumpelstiltskin smiled.Smiled. It made him sick. It made him want to puke. The man was a demon.

"So impatient considering that it's going to be your last."

His body grew tensed. He was never afraid of dying. Even now. But he wasn't ready. Not when he just found his home. Not when he just felt loved and accepted. Not when he just found the woman of his life.