Previously on Finding Myself: I became weak but now im gonna show him who's boss.Oh crap We who else is with her? Oh My Gosh Vale who did this to you ima fucking kill them stacy yelled. Justin was in the corner shaking vigourously with clenced fist and jaw."whats wrong, whats wrong the girl im in love with looks like she got hit by a fucking car." he yelled. "yo...you love ME?" i asked dumbfounded. "of course i love you who wouldn't love you?!
why would anyone love me im damaged goods. And i told him just that " why would you want damaged goods? I asked him, you can do so much better than me, i have nothing to offer you." i said through my tears.
" you have more than enough vale always have always will and your only damaged cause of that dipshit." he said softening a liltle bit. i looked into his eyes and praticaly got lost in them and thats how i knew i was screwed.
He walked closer and sat right next to me holding me in a tight hug, i just sat their wondering how it came to this
FLASBACK 11 YEARS AGO: mom? where are we going i asked dazed. she looked at me with panick filled eyes she forced a fake smile to me and sighed, your going to meet your father little ole me never seeing my father was estatic and realy didnt feel the tension in the air, i was stupis cause it was so thick i could cut it with a chain saw. 25 minutes later she stoped at a tore down house took my stuff out onto the porch with a breif note and me right next to it rang the doorbell and turned to me. " i love you alright and nothings gonna change that im doing this to save you please dont hate me, if i didnt bring you here it would be a ton worst i promise ill come back for you." she said in one big breath she kissed my cheek hopped in the car an drove off. i didnt think of anything she just said barely payed attention i was just happy to get to see my dad.......but it turned out to be my worst nightmare
My first beating was a year after i got here he beat me so hard i was out for two days but he didnt care he never did.my life was in his hands he was sorto like gazpacho and i was his little pinnochio puppet from that day forward he made my life a living HELL.
When i was 12 years old, he waas gone for about a week, and me being stupid i was happy thinking he wasn't going to come back, how wrong i was. The house was clean, empty, and quiet just how it was all the time he's not here. i was sitting down watching tv when he came in DRUNK big suprise and he brought some friends along. i wasn't scared at the time but i should've been.
" aye! go get us a drink!" he yelled
" no your drunk already your going to have liver cancer the way your going." i stated calmly
he came over to me and screamed " get your ass up and get US a drink THANK YOU!"
i sighed but got up any way i got 4 drinks and started on my way to the living room when i heard them talking
" when?" one guy asked
" when she comes back well do it then." my father said sternly.
" i call first 2nd dude said i havent had sex in a month."
as soon as he finished talking i dropped the beers and ran, i heard them chasing me. i tripped and fell face first. my dad laughed and started taking myclothes off i kicked and screamed and i guess none of the neighbors heard or didn't care. they taped my mouth and arms. i just looked at my father in disgust how could he rape his own daugter? thats just low dirty and trifling. i cried when one man hovered over me and took my innocent, my virginity. that's the night i cracked the night when i was raped by 4 people and one of them was my father.
Present: "can you want someone who got pregnant at 13?" i asked Justin crying
" you got pregnant at 13? he asked shocked, whos the father?
I laughed no humour in my voice what so ever and said
"My Father"..................................
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Finding Myself
FantasyValentine Brooks was left by her mother at the age of 5 on her fathers front door steps.Which really wasn't a good idea. Read to find out what fate has in store for her.
