An Unfinished Symphony (Yandere Wilbur X Reader)

Self-blame

There was a nauseating crack of my knees falling to the ground after my legs couldn't carry me any longer. I had made it just far enough to where I wouldn't have to see the remains of L'Manburg.

The scent of smoke had made it way over here, a constant reminder of what had just happened. My face scrunched up, before ugly sobs shook my body. I ripped off the beanie that I was wearing.

My hand shook as I slowly lifted it to my nose before inhaling the scent. It still smelt like his stupid shampoo that he constantly bought. A scent tied to my memory of him. It shouldn't have been as comforting as it was.

I hated him but I still took comfort in his smell, I ached for his presence. I ached for his comforting touch, the way he would whisper sweet nothings into my ear whenever I was having a bad day. I miss him.

I threw the beanie away from me. Not being able to look at it any longer. It shouldn't hurt this much. I hate him, I do. Whimpers escaped from my mouth as I folded my legs to my chest. I rested my chin against my knees and wiped at my tears. I wished desperately for the over whelming hurt in my heart to leave.

Someone's cautious fingers tapped on my shoulder. My head turned to face them, I wiped at my eyes again, feeling embarrassed at my tears. I looked up at them in shock, not saying a word. Another traitor looked back at me giving me a sad smile. His pink hair was pulled back in a braid that rested on his shoulder.

"Are you alright?"

I gave a dry laugh, no amusement was behind the action. What a dumb question.

"What do you think?"

"I think that you shouldn't be alone right now."

My shoulder moved up before falling down in a lazy motion. My eyes moved down towards the floor and I rolled a dandelion between my fingers. Doing anything to avoid maintaining eye contact. I want to be left alone in my own self pity. He's probably right though.

"Maybe not."

I hear his footsteps move closer. He abruptly landed on the ground next to me with his legs crossed. An audible "oof" left his lips from the action before silence followed. I could feel
Techno's eyes on me.

"Yes?" I glance over quickly before looking away.

"Look Y/n. I know you probably don't want me here and I know I did some fucked up shit and you probably hate me just like everyone else on this server but-" His words stopped spewing from his mouth as I cut off his speech.

"I missed you, asshole." My arms wrapped around his torso tight. His body tensed at the embrace. Never was a hugger that man. He patted my head before he removed my arms.

"I missed you too." He gave a kind smile. Probably the most affection I've ever seen him give anyone.

My eyes widen. I'm so selfish. Why am I sitting here right now? What about Tommy?

Tommy loved L'Manburg just as much as I did if not more. He must be devastated. I quickly rose, a goal in mind as I set off to find the blonde teen. Heavier footsteps followed close behind me.

"Where are you going?" The piglin asked.

"I'm looking for Tommy."

"Oh. I should be going then."

"If you want, he's not going to do anything. He's too tired to."

"How would you know?"

"I know how he's feeling. I'm also at fault for what happened so I'm going over to apologize."

"How-"

"Shh. I didn't invite you to ask me questions."

He made a tsk with his tongue and I could practically hear his eyes roll. He continued to silently follow me.

-

Tommy was sat, slouched staring into his lap where his hands laid. Tears fell along his cheeks, a silent sadness. True devastation drove the loud boy to silence.

He must've sensed my presence, his eyes glanced up and widened when they landed on me. His body launched itself up from it's position and into my arms. His face hid in my shoulder as his tears dampened my sleeve.

I placed my head on top of his, his hunched posture and our similar heights allowing the action. Tears fell from my eyes. I'm so sick of crying, but it feels alright with this boy I had grown so close to.

"I'm so sorry Tommy. This is all my fault, I should've tried harder. I could've stopped him." I moved to look him in the eyes.

"Y/n that's what you think? This isn't your fault. It's never going to be anyone's fault except for him."

"But I should've-"

He just hugged me once more. I tightened my grip, a protective stance and allowed my tears to fall some more.