Save me | Jung Hoseok (ambw) (ON HOLD)

6.

30 minutes later

Hobi just texted me to let me know that he was about to start making his way here, I'm a little more than halfway done with the food. I decided to make chicken curry and rice which takes a little time and seaweed soup which I found out is something he loves to have when he goes home to visit his family.

While I was sitting and letting the food boil I had to run through what I was going to say  to him, this was going to be our first in person conversation since we met that night at the corner store and I was kinda about to interrogate him. But it's for a very good reason.

While I was sitting on my couch still in deep thought my dog, Star gets up and runs to the door not even a minute later my doorbell is being rung.

As much as I'm kinda regretting this now because I know my anxiety won't let me be great, I practically run to the door almost tripping over the rug to open it so I don't have him waiting to long.

When I open the door I'm greeted by a super smiley Hobi, this is my first time seeing his full face in person without a mask and I'm absolutely mesmerized by all of his perfection. His smile honestly just gives me butterflies in my stomach and a pulse in my.....ummm wait a damn minute now we not finna do this ms.thang, I'm gonna need you to calm down he could be playing with you remember.

I didn't even realize I was still just staring at this man while arguing in my head again until he speaks up and talks to me.

"So can I come in??" I nervously chuckle and whisper a yeah as I move aside and let him into my apartment. He takes his shoes and jacket off and I lead him to the front room.

"You're puppy is even cuter in person", shit I could say the same thing about you I thought you were sexy in the picture but you someway somehow look even better in person, that should be illegal.

"Thank you I'm glad she doesn't truly understand you're complimenting her because she would be feeling herself right now, she's already a spoiled mess."

"Haha my dog Mickey is the same honestly he gets pampered a lot, you're apartment is really nice by the way too I love the style of it."

"Well thank you Hobi I'm glad you like my style now I just hope that you'll like my food which should be done by now."

Time skip after dinner
Me and Hobi were now sitting on the couch just chilling, he's still overly praising me about my food which I had to admit was kinda better than I had even thought it would be.

"I'm most definitely gonna wanna eat here more often that was amazing, especially for someone who isn't used to Korean food" I feel my face heating up as he continues to compliment me if I wasn't a brown skin he would most definitely see that I was blushing.

"Hey what can I say I'm black we have that type of effect to adapt and make anything taste bomb in the kitchen, you can take some home if you want I'm not gonna eat it all."

"Oh really thanks , now I just have to find a way to sneak it in without my roommates finding out there totally gonna want some and I most definitely don't want to share with all of them." Ok Kehlani this is your chance to start asking questions.

"How many roommates do you have exactly?"
"6"
"Wow really, why so many?"
"We all have been working in the music industry with each other for the same amount of time so we've grown close enough to live with each other, we have separate places too but we'll rather be all together."
"Ahh ok so you guys are kinda like a group then"

Hoseok's POV:
When I told the guys I was going over to Lani's house they all told me that I should just go ahead and tell her who I really was and what I really do and that's what I was planning to do well until I saw what I don't think I was supposed to see....

Flashback to lunch
"I don't know if it's because the food is fresh off the stove or what but I'm getting hot I'm gonna go turn the cool air on real quick, is that ok with you?", "yeah that's totally fine this is your apartment", "I know but I just don't want you to be cold" after I ensure her that I'll be fine she gets up and rolls up her sleeves and I happen to catch a glimpse of something that I can't quite grasp what it is. When she comes back to the table she doesn't roll her sleeves back down for awhile and that's when I truly see what it was and my heart feels as if it just dropped they were.........
Self harm scars.

I had the strongest feeling in my mind that she was someone who was happy but what if she's not. I mean they look old I guess but that's just what I saw what if there new ones somewhere else or she's doing something possibly even worse than that to hurt herself. I can't possibly tell her who I am now.

She's gonna start doing research and start seeing all the negative things that people say about me and the boys and the even worse things that "fans" say about any female that even breathes in the same space that we do and I know for a fact if she's not happy right now it'll scare her.

"I guess you could say that but not really I just think we're a bunch of soulmates."
She smiles at my response and tells me how cute that is , she asks me a couple more questions about the boys that I responded to, to the best of my ability making sure I don't say anything that could hint anything dealing with being famous which I think I'm doing pretty good at.

Kehlani's POV:
This boy is definitely hiding something.

When I asked him to tell me about his roommates he's talking very precisely as if he doesn't wanna slip up and say something wrong. Either there more than roommates and sweet soulmates or he just doesn't wanna slip up and tell me something embarrassing about them.

After talking for hours it was starting to get dark outside so Hobi decided that it was best for him to go now. I didn't follow through completely with the whole plan of interrogating him if anything I just made myself stupidly like this man more.

My sister always used to tell me that it's extremely rare to find someone you can talk to for hours with or just sit in silence with and not be bored, she would say that those would be the only men you would give a chance to but I would never be one to find out if they exist or not for real.

It kinda sucks not being able to talk to my big sister about this because I really wanna tell her that I may have found a really rare boy but she would kill me if I told her Hobi was is my house when I'm not even supposed to be talking to boys.

After I walked Hobi out and thanked him for coming over to hang with me he thanked me for the food and surprisingly gave me a kiss on the cheek before he left that can I say just caught me off guard.

Was this a sign that he was trying to get close to me to get something from me or was he maybe feeling someway about me too? What ever it is needs to hurry up and expose itself so I know what moves to take next. Im most definitely gonna be up late thinking again tonight I sigh to myself.