Twinkling Lights

Chapter 10

Unrequited love. Probably one of the most painful and pure forms of love. It's both something I look forward to and hate beyond anything. The glances he give me and the small sparks of false hope that starts up in my heart are all enough for me. I know it's pitiful and shameless of me to even continue on this path, knowing that I have no chance. I can't help it....

If only you liked me back.....

My love for Tsukki is beyond anything I've ever felt—probably the most profound feeling I'll ever feel towards another person. And although he will never love me back, I'm content with how things are. Being just friends is enough for me.

It's painful though....

Wednesday...yesterday I confronted Tsukki about his jealousy and I totally forgot to tell him about my date with Yachi. In the end, I agreed to go on the date...mainly to try and get over my feelings for Tsukki. It's starting to get too painful and maybe liking someone else for a change could prove nicely. Tsukki and I can still be friends.

I stare at the front of the class blankly, the teacher's mind numbing voice blurring out into the background. Completely zoned out and subconsciously fidgeting with my bangs. A book as dropped on my desk, causing me to jump and snapping me out of my daze. I look up to find my teacher glaring daggers at me with her hands on her hips.

"Yamaguchi, if you would so gladly go up to the board and answer the question. Well considering how well you are paying attention and all." The teacher stated passive aggressively.

I nod obediently, walking up to the board with my head down and writing the answer. I might not have been paying attention, but I wasn't dumb. I sulked back to my seat, deciding to just lay my head down and rest my eyes for the rest of class. I overheard my teacher state my answer was in fact correct, before I just tuned everything out.

The date.....with Yachi. Friday. This Friday. What should I wear? It's a date so it has to be nice. God. I feel shitty even agreeing to go. Can't back out now. Oh well...

I felt a hand squeeze my shoulder, pulling me out of my hazy thoughts. I lazily lift my head, meeting a pair of hazel eyes followed by blond curls. I stare into the eyes, analyzing how there are green flecks here and there, as well as a slight caramel tint near the edges. I always thought they were pretty. Eyes are the gateway to the soul after all...

He seems sad today. Why? What are you sad? I know if I just ask you'll answer me. But....

I let that thought trail off, as I come back to my senses. Reality hitting me like a train. My face growing red from how long I had been staring. I sit up completely to give Tsukki my full attention.

"Oh...hi Tsukki. Didn't see ya there." I remark uncontrollably, allowing a sting of sarcasm in my tone.

"Are you having a bad day of something? You seem....off today—" Tsukki started, before I cut him off in a rude manner.

"Oh. Wow. Didn't know you were me! Thank you for telling me how I feel today. I really appreciate it. Why don't we head to lunch? Hmm?" I retort purposely sardonically, smiling my ass off like I won a prize or something.

"I—" Tsukki gaped in attempt to talk.

"Lunch?! Come on or I'm leaving you." I scoff, grabbing my bag and walking off pettily.

Tch-

"Just hold up!"

I stop mid step and turn on my heels, wearing an nonchalant expression, slightly scornful-looking though. Tsukki looking ready to explode with anger, but stuck trying to form words.