Twinkling Lights

Chapter 18

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It's been two weeks.

All I've done up until now is sit around in Akaashi's room sulking, while he went off to school. I barely found time—or rather energy—to get up and make myself food. To be frank, I've just spent most my days sleeping or thinking about how life is for everyone back home. I find myself eating only when reminded by either Akaashi or my own body. So far I've spent three whole days straight in bed...ignoring my own health and hygiene.

I'm not really sure why I haven't been able to get up lately. Akaashi said it might be because I'm still in shock and recovering from the after effects of being abused. Like I'm mentally not okay right now or something. I don't know... I just feel...off.

I'm fine though.... Just.....tired.

It's a Wednesday and Akaashi said he might come home late due to long practice. I feel like on the verge of either crying or exploding with pure rage. I don't know.... Maybe I've finally lost it.

I can't sleep anymore. I've slept so much that I just can't anymore. Or maybe it's the nightmares that keep from properly sleeping.

Recently I keep dreaming of myself being stuck in a small box. There's no light and a constant humming of a familiar melody coming from the outside. The air suddenly starts leaving the box until I can't breath anymore. Then the box become transparent and revealing my mom, dad, and auntie. They all smile at me, mouthing the words 'we love you'. The humming becomes louder until I suffocate and wake up in cold sweat. But right before I wake up, I always catch a glance of Tsukki walking away as I reach out for his help.

Crazy, right? Eh....it's just a stupid dream. If anything it just proves how much my parents really did a number on me. Haha...

Oh yeah....my parents. I wonder if they're doing well. I hope they are. I wonder if they miss me. I wonder if Tsukki misses me. I miss him. I wonder how the team is. I doubt there's any difference with me not being there. I was just a benchwarmer anyways. Haha....

I feel my eyes start to tear up and this unwanted feeling bubble up inside me.

Loneliness.

As the tears run down my cheeks, I just stare forward at the wall trying my hardest to pretend like this is all, but a dream. I'm not sure how long I lay like that on my right side huddles up. I hear the front door open and close, footsteps making a ruckus in the infinite silence from before. Then the door to the room opens and the footsteps come to a stop.

"Yama? Are you okay? Have you eaten? I saw that the food I left on the countertop was still there. Not to mention the towel and change of clothes I left beside you is still there. Have you been in bed all day? You know....if you ever need anything, you just have to ask okay? Even if you want to just talk, feel free to just talk. I'm here for you. Hmm?" A light voice breaks the silence, leaving an eerie atmosphere behind.

"I....I...I'm fine.... Just...need...need sleep..." I sputter between involuntary sobs.

Sigh- "I didn't want to do this...especially because I'm not as close with you as Tsukishima is. But it has to be done. I'm sorry for what I'm about to do, however rest assure it will help. Please...don't resist...I don't want to make it harder than it already is." The voice spoke up firmly, yet wavering a bit.