Serene Nightmare

I shut the door tight
turned up the music loud enough
to silence the chaos for a moment
I crumbled right there
and sunk to the depth
"You have everything"
no one to reach out,
day and night, time and space
were just empty words with no sense
I sunk further trying to reach a thread of hope
that was severed long ago
" You are the reason why "
I screamed
only for it to fade, again and again
Until my voice turned quiet
As i sunk still, unable to breathe, is this their dream of a good night?
" You are selfish"
In the darkest corner I'm in
I feel my demons creeping up
Embracing the child that never grew-up
" You ruin everyone around"
Every word and curse
I didn't mean, but I fought
Hoping someone would come around
only heavens know, I tried
yet Here am I
" You should Just leave"
Buried in shadows and I'll remain,
faded into this serene nightmare