SBI X CHILD READER (Going through editing)

008- The comfortation

TRIGGER WARNINGS:
Panicking, negative thoughts, crying

(A/N I have tried to make it as fluffy as possible but I can't write fluff well and this is my first fan fic so I'm just learning. Hope you enjoy this!)

Y/N POV:

I braced myself for impact of any sort, but none came. I didn't get hurt. I felt arms wrap around  me, I flinched at the sudden gesture and they immediately disappeared. I slowly started to bring my arms down. My senses had started to come back so I could see and hear now. I could see techno sat there. He looked so sad. I don't know why though.
He opened his arms, seeing if I was ok for a hug. I nodded and scooted closer to him as he once again wrapped his arms around me.
My sobbing started to subside as I clung into him, I was quite touch starved but that didn't matter right now. Now I needed to calm down and give the pinkette an explanation for why he found a crying child who he had known for less then a month in a bathroom.

Fun

I was calmer now. Thanks to technoblade. He had kept me in his embrace and rubbed comforting circles into my back. He told me to focus on his heartbeat and that also worked surprisingly well! I was still currently in his hug and honestly I didn't not mind, it's felt rather nice. I felt safe, protected: something I hadn't in a long while. We stayed like this for a bit, yet I could have stayed like that forever. After a while though he started to pull away. Great, now I would have to explain all of this.

Did I have a plan or excuse? Nope.

Was I more screwed then a well screwed-in screw? Yes

"Y/N. What's going on."

He didn't say this like a question, he was demanding an answer. But also kind of not harsh enough to demand, he confuses me in a whole new level.

"I don't know what your talking about."

... now that is pathetic. Now I was extra screwed. That was the most trash excuse ever. I feel so ashamed.

He didn't rage at my ridiculous attempt if keeping up my lies, instead he sighed and said
"You know exactly what I'm talking about Y/N. We are not going to hurt you, we can't help you if we don't know where to start and what to start with. The files only gave us a limited amount of information you know."

The mention of the files made me start to feel rubbish again.

"Maybe I don't need help, or want it" I grumbled, hugging my knees so much my chest was starting to hurt.

He raised an eyebrow at my response.
"Not need help? If you don't need help then I must have imagined what just happened and the last couple of days. Someone who doesn't need help doesn't act like this."

Shit. He really decided to got there. His slight statement stung a bit. His intention was right and the way he meant for me to take it had nothing wrong with it. It was my brain that was the problem. My brain took that and interpreted it into something negative and insulting.

"He's saying your not normal. Your brain isn't normal Y/N. You should be in some mental institution, just like h̸e̸r̸"

No. No, no, no, no, no. I was nothing like h̸e̸r̸. No I wasn't cruel. No I wasn't a monster. No I wasn't anything like her.

"Oh but you are. You oh so much like her Y/N. In ways you will recognise sooner or later..."

I was crying. Again. This time it wasn't full on sobbing. It was tears falling down whilst you stay still, frozen and paralysed with fear, or sadness or anger.

I escaped from the crushing,dark void that is my very mind. Technoblade had pulled me into a hug whilst I was in my petrified state. I hugged him back, letting him know I was back to the land of the self-conscious. His arm dropped and we sat back into our spaces. Me against the wall with my knees at me chest and techno was kneeling in front of me, slightly towards to side if the door.

"Sorry for my choice of wording. It was obviously not the wisest."

"It- it's fine."

"Mm. but you do get what I mean. Tommy and Wilbur were like this too. And I bet if you asked Wilbur he would have dealt with something similar with me. Please just explain. I want to help. You don't have to give me your whole life story. Just some basics and the baseline of what you've been through."

I inhaled and did some wick calculations in my head.

"Ok."

He smiled slightly and gestured for me to start.

"Right. So..."

(A/N and you will not egg the whole thing, not because I can't be bothered but because you can't know just yet. That's gonna be for later. Anyway I hoped you enjoy, make sure to take care of yourself!)