Trigger warnings: voices, self hate, start of eating disorder, start of self harm
this story may been done before but I'm not sure, it just popped up in my mind 😩
Also in this story techno is added so we'll have sbi shit, I honestly don't know if he fr joined so im just gonna make him a pig hybrid
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Tommy's POV:
Everyone in this smp is so perfect. Ranboo being able to teleport, techno's strong, Wilbur can go invisible... and Phil can fly. I can't do anything. I'm practically useless. No ones around me, not even my own family. The one thing they don't know is I'm a avian hybrid, just like dadza... but I rip all my feathers off. I don't like them, I don't need them. They already have their avian, why would they need another one? At this moment I'm just known as human. A simple stupid human... but I didn't ask for more. Ranboo took my place as bestfriend with Tubbo so they forgot about me, wilbur practically hangs with niki all the time and techno... well he's busy with his potato farm. I just wander off most of the times into the woods, to rip my feathers out. It hurts, yes. But the pain makes me feel good.
"Techno, wil, Tommy. Dinners ready!" I groaned. I never liked food, PLUS I was 'vegetarian' cause I got really sick everytime I ate meat. Its no fun, I'd rather not eat then eat only fucking vegetables.
"Morning Tommy" I heard Wilbur saying from behind me.
"Morning." I just simply answered. I had a sharp pain in my back but just ignored it. After dinner I went outside, to my usual spot. I usually draw and chill there alone. I draw my problems, my voices... even my pain. Drawing is some kind of therapy to me.
Jump off the cliff
No one stops you.
Die
I ignored those voices. What's the point of ending it all if you cant feel any pain? Although, it looked peaceful to die, pain was always something I liked. Yeah it hurted but I'd take that. All of the sudden it began to rain. I liked it though, rain was so peaceful and beautiful. The only thing was it burned my skin, not sure how. Only Ranboo and jack would be the ones who got burned by water but somehow I do to. That doesn't take me away from the rain though. I liked the pain of my burned skin. I had many many scars just because of the rain that no one knows about. I closed my eyes for a second, drifting asleep. It was nice and quiet. The voices calmed down and were just whispering because of the burned skin. They are quiet whenever I feel pain OR whenever I killed. I never killed so I just had to feel pain and I didn't really mind it. At the sounds of the rain hitting the ground I fell asleep.
•time skip, a few hours later•
Philza's POV:
Its been almost 6 hours Tommy went out. Techno and wil already came back from whatever they were doing but Tommy didn't. No one really knows where he goes to, we didn't really consider to follow him. I was getting worried though...
"Where is he..." I muttered but it was loud enough for my older sons to hear
"How long has he been out again?" Wilbur asked with a slight worried tone.
"I-I don't know? Maybe like 6 hours ago?" I said looking towards the front door. Oh god I really hoped he would just walk out there and say something like 'sorry, I was walking around and got lost' but I knew that wouldn't happen. What if he got kidnapped?! He's a human after all...
"I can go out to look for him?" Techno asked. Techno always 'shows' he hates Tom but in reality he's the one who cares about him the most. From the day we found him in the woods he's been protective.
"I-if you want to?" I just answered. I didn't want him to go into the rain but if Tommy's in danger it would be now or never.
"Bring him back, techno. Its almost night, I don't want him to die by a skeleton..." Wilbur said softly while techno nodded and walked out with a sword just in case.
Techno's POV:
I walked outside and headed towards the woods since that's the only place he could be at this moment. I walked a while in silence, I was so worried about Tommy. Once he though Tubbo replaced him he's just been more depressive. I never liked seeing him like that, he's not my biological brother but that doesn't change shit. I'd like to tell people I don't really care about him just so they won't figure out he's the only soft spot I have. Yeah sure I care about Wilbur and Phil but Tommy's something else.
Left
GO LEFT
The voices said over and over again, so I did. I walked for a bit to see a beautiful small lake with a small waterfall. And sure enough, the small blond haired boy was sleeping on top of the small mountain. He had red marks all over his body, I was confused how he had them... I went up the mountain and just picked him up. I didn't want to wake him cause I knew he didn't have sleep in 2 weeks. The eye bags said enough. I walked back to our house and opened the door. Wilbur and Phil running towards us.
"what happened?! Where was he?!" Wilbur asked worried
"Shut up. You might wake him." I said glaring towards him as he nodded.
"I found him on a mountain with a small mountain and waterfall. He was sleeping" I said quietly. The second after I said that he began to wake up.
"Hmm?" He said groaning and opening his eyes
"Oh. Hey tech" he added calmly
"Why the fuvk were you sleeping on a mountain in the rain?!" Phil yelled out. You could tell Phil was worried, so we're me and wil.
"Got tired." He just shrugged as I let go. He walked towards his room without hesitation and closed it without us being enable to ask something
He's lying
He's not okay.
Help him
Help Theseus.
I was confused by the voices. He seemed completely fine? He just fell asleep? I shook the thoughts off me. Tommy was completely fine
