My Salvation | Billie & Jahseh

Chapter 2

Warning: Self-harm, cursing.

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April 29, 8:32AM

Why life gotta suck so much?
Everything was not that bad 3 years ago,
Until my mother acquainted with George, my abusive alcoholic stepfather, and his son Quentin which now is my stepbrother.
Yes, my mother had problems with alcohol before George but now it got worse.
He has a bad impact on her, and everybody else.
Not even talking about Q
Although he goes to the same school I go to, I prefer walking.
The first time which was also the last time when he gave me a ride was horrible, he was touching my fucking thigh, when I spoke up and said that I don't like that he told me to get the fuck out of his car.
Asshole.

Billie's POV

I'm getting closer to that shithole called "school"
As I'm going through the parking lot, I already see eyes on me.
I hate it so much
They stare at me like I would be some type of animal.

I finally entered the school and it's 8:35 AM which means I have only 5 minutes left till my first period.
As the music plays through my ears I continue my way through the school hallway, with my head down, hands In pockets, trying my best to avoid people.
I successfully got to my locker.
I unlocked it and a bunch of paper sheets fell out, I quickly got down to pick them up
Ahh nothing new just a bunch of hurtful words like
"Slut" "whore" "weirdo" "hoe" etc
I guess I'm getting kinda used to it
But I'm impressed by how they got time and patience to write them all and put them in my locker every morning
It's a bit funny tho
Dumbasses
I got my books, took out my earbuds, and walked to the nearest trash can to throw them out.

"Ohhh the hoe is here, I didn't even see you, I guess you're getting more and more invisible every day"

Someone said
I didn't even bother to look up and examine who said that.
They're not worth my time.

I felt someone pull me back by my backpack

Ahhh not again

"seems like you're getting deaf too," Kellan said
Sheyla who was standing besides her just laughed

I looked at them emotionless, waiting for whatever they'll say next

"Wait I think she swallowed her tongue too" Sheyla spoke

I still stood there emotionless

"Bitch speak" Kellan said, getting impatient.

I'm not here to entertain them or something.

"What do you want me to say?" I asked

Kellan looked at me in disgust
"Ahh Sheyla bestie come on let's go, she's not worth our time"

What the fuck?
I thought to myself.

The bell rang.

I shake my head and headed my way to the classroom.

Ahhh I hate Math so much

As I walked into the classroom all the eyes were on me

"You're late Billie"

"I'm sorry Mrs. Miller"
I apologized and went to my seat at the back.
But I suddenly tripped over someone's foot and fell on the floor
Sharp pain going through my knee
I look down and I see blood soaking through my joggers.
All the notes and drawings that previously were in my hand now are on the floor and someone is stomping them with their dirty sneakers,
As everybody laughs.
I look around, too embarrassed to move or say something.
Everyone is pointing at me and laughing, am I really that big of a failure?
I send a glare to my drawings, which now are completely ruined, I feel tears starting to form in my eyes.
I spent my time on those drawings.