I had my baby 2 months after my 17th birthday, the love I felt was amazing but I was scared, me hand the baby's dad split up not long after baby was born, I was left home holding the babe while he was out with his mates, and while seeing other woman,
One being my neighbour, I heard his voice through the wall, I knocked on the door pretending I needed to borrow something, I saw his trainers I bought him.. I spent whole evening questioning myself!!!
I waited till the next day and asked if he had a good night, he said yes went out with mates, I lost it and he had then told me the truth, she offered him drugs and he went round for some, I moved into my mums with my little girl, he would come see her but not for long,
We argued a lot and I hated it, I still loved him even through everything, it was now 2 weeks and my baby would be 1, I'd put her to bed my mum was out, my phone rang , little did I know that call would change my life in an instant and I'd be left broken hearted again and my girl without a dad.
The call no one ever wants. The call the nightmares are made of,
The Sam are you home alone, please sit down, "wils is dead" my heart stopped and my eyes filled with tears, you must be lying, this can't be true, he had a beautiful daughter he wouldn't leave her, so much in my head, all I wanted to do was wake my baby and hold her tight,
Within 20 minutes my house was full of people who come to support me, to check I was ok. Truth was I was broken, I sat with a bottle of wine just drinking, I felt numb, like someone had whipped my heart out and I was watching from the outside, my dad went to the house and there was police and lots of people I still didn't want to believe it,
The morning came with a knock on the door, was a police man, he introduced himself, and handed me my passport that had been left with other bits to be found, he confirmed my worst nightmare, from then it got harder, he hadn't left a note for me or his daughter but had for the girl he was seeing, she had been to see him at the hospital,
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My life through my eyes
Cerita Pendek16 and In love, first boyfriend, first love. Little did I know that would change my whole life forever, and no in a good way. Pregnancy to losing my best friend, becoming a mum and losing myself , buts it's ok to not be ok, I'm sam and this is my...
