(Skipping to the day he's leaving cause i don't have any ideas)
Today was the day,
I was leaving for the U.K.
I was nervous to say the least.
In these months nothing got better, I'm not sure I can say it got 'worse' but something did change.
The past week leading up tot his was hectic between filming, getting ready for it, all while still dealing with my mom, it sucked.
I expected it to just be a normal week with a little bit of filming but it was for from that.
I had 30 minutes before I had to be at the airport.
I was flying alone which was a plus, but then there's also the fact I've never flown.
-time skip-
I was just about to get off the plane and my nerves were definitely there.
I still wasn't sure how to calm them so I always just had to deal with it, that whole take deep breathes thing never actually worked for me, I had tried about a thousand different things but they just never worked.
The plane had just landed and I was insanely nervous.
The flight person was just instructing as to what to do when my phone went off.
I didn't get the chance to read it until I was off the plane.
I told tubbo I had just landed and waited for him outside the airport.
I was already nervous enough when it came to seeing friends who I went to school with everyday but seeing tubbo I person I've never met face to face and lived in a different country was horrifying.
Tubbo got to the point where he could really tell when I was stressed or anxious.
I was going to have to really hide all this.
One good thing is me and Tubbo weren't actually sleeping in the same rooms which would be a good and bad thing.
I saw tubbo walking towards me and that's when I was really close to breaking down but I couldn't yet.
Tubbo almost immediately consumed me in a hug.
He was honestly taller than I thought he would be.
"You okay Ranboo?"
"Yeah I'm okay. Just get nervous on planes."
-time skip-
I was back at Tubbos and we had just been playing Minecraft.
I was shaking a bit which tubbo didn't notice.
At some point his parents called us down to ask what we wanted for dinner.
We decided on pizza so it would be easy to just take it up to his room.
Once we got up to his room he made sure I knew I didn't have to eat anything I couldn't handle which honestly made me very happy that this stuff wasn't just for over a discord call that it was real life too.
At this point tubbo had noticed the shaking as we weren't playing Minecraft anymore we were just talking.
I honestly didn't even know why I was shaking, I wasn't nervous or anything.
The pizza had just got here and his parents ordered two smaller pizzas for us to take upstairs and then one for them.
I really like that as I hate eating in front of people, of course tubbo was there but he's someone I know won't judge.
I really wasn't doing good with food at all so eating was honestly hard.
I knew tubbo said I didn't have to eat anything I didn't want to but I felt weird not eating at least one piece.
As usual tubbo did notice the way I looked slightly sick.
"Ranboo are you alright?"
I was honestly zoned out and he scared the shit out of me.
"Yeah I'm okay"
Tubbo looked skeptical but brushed it off for now.
