Painting Flowers
"Love! look a star" Elly said while pointing at something. I looked up to see what she's pointing at but didn't know what she's talking about.
"Where?" she suddenly giggled and cupped my face. "Here"
Her smile was the brightest. Protect her. I reminded myself. Elly has always suffered to survive but her smile tells otherwise and I'm so lucky to have her.
"Silly, I haven't even landed a big project yet." I said smiling at her. She suddenly frowned at my remark.
"And? You're still my brightest star" I just sighed and pulled her in a hug.
I'm an aspiring actor. I haven't had that much projects yet. I starred in 1 movie and 2 drama with 4 cfs. I know it's already a good start but it didn't earn much. And the person that inspired and cheered me on was Elly, my other half.
I can't believe this girl is an inspiration to everyone surrounding her yet she can't value herself. She's too good for the world.
"What if you suddenly have an offer in L.A.? then it becomes your big break? Then you need to stay there? Then you'll suddenly ignore me? Then you'll leave---" I cut her of by giving her a peck. She suddenly became a blushing mess and started hitting me. Why does she still feel giddy about this stuff? How come she's still not used to it? we've been together for more than 3 years already, do I still have that effect on her?
"It won't, I promise to stay with you" I smiled to assure her
But it happened.
I never wanted to leave her but I need to support my family. My mother is suffering because of that jerk I don't even wanna claim him as my father. My siblings need me.
"Andrew you don't need to do this" my mother said trying to hold back her tears while holding my hand.
I sighed. I can't look at her in the eyes. I know she's having a hard time supporting us but she doesn't show it to us since she think that we can't handle the matter yet, but I'm already 18. I can stand up for my family, and I will.
"Mom, I know it's hard to let me go alone but I can handle myself now. I know you've been suffering to support us with our education and even for our daily needs. I promise I won't let myself get hurt there" I said trying to assure her. She broke into tears and hugged me. She whispered something that made my mind blank.
"Our family can through this, but how about Ellereis she only has you" she said
Elle doesn't have a family anymore his parents died in an ambush which she also witnessed since she was the only survivor of the tragedy. That's why I never left her side, because she doesn't have anyone to hold onto.
I never really thought of breaking up with her. Neither leave her hanging. I can't drag her to L.A. since my management told me about no dating rules. No, I won't break up with her.
I can't think of anything lonelier than not having her to go back to. She's my home and my safe haven. Although she's very fragile having her next to me made me at ease.
I need an assurance that I have someone to go back to. I need to look forward to going home.
She knows I'm leaving that's why she has been avoiding me for a week now. She locked herself in her house. I hope she copes up well. Sigh. Who am kidding here? I know she wouldn't take this well. But I need her to be strong for me, for us and for herself.
I can't talk to her face to face because I know I won't be able to leave if I see her cry in front of me.
I should write a letter.
That's what I exactly did. Run through my stuff and found some scented paper. I chuckled this is probably hers but she doesn't want it with her since it's smell like funeral she said. I'll miss you so much.
