Trouvaille

16

Jessica Paige

The world at that moment didn't exist. It was just me and him, and I didn't want to let go but eventually, I did. We stood there for a long time just looking at each other, I finally could see him. Who he was in real life, and that is when it hit me, that Harry freaking Styles was standing in front of me with desire in his eyes. How did I get here? How did I fall for someone that I used to daydream about, how did someone I used to daydream about fall for me?

I'm lost.

I'm lost in the wonders that are Harry Styles, and I can't find my way out, I'm drowning in it and I think I'm done trying to resist.

I give in.

"AHHHH!"

As I was lost in my thought I didn't notice that Stevie had come back inside and it was already too late before I could stop him. He ran right in between me and Harry, tackled him, and hit him straight in the balls, not only that Harry also fell backward hitting his head on the extremely low counter.

"Harry!! Stevie..NO!" I yelled.

WHACK

I was frozen, the sound of Harry hitting his head on the counter ran through the house. His body sunk to the ground and his head dropped forward. Tears filled my eyes and slid down my cheek, I couldn't move. Harry was so scared that he was going to get me hurt but everything bad that has happened to him and I has been because of me.

My Grandma walked into the room as Harry lay slightly conscious on the floor moaning, and it was like I was brought back to life. I went over to Stevie and knelt down, he had started crying as well.

"Stevie..." I said to him, he shook his head saying no.

"It's ok, it was an accident just go to your room ok?"

He wiped his tears away and put on a strong face, just like I was trying to do, and ran upstairs. I stayed knelt there for a second, scared to turn towards Harry and to what I had done. But then the doorbell rang. I stood up quickly and looked at Grandma.

"Are we..." I started to whisper.

"J!! Are you here?"

Its Julie!

"She can't come in, she can't see Harry," I whispered as concern grew inside of me.

"I will deal with her, ok?" My Grandma said and I nodded.

She walked away and opened the door to Julie who I could hear talking rapid-fire. I turned when I heard Harry grunt as he tried to get up and tears welt up in my eyes again. I rushed over to him and pushed him back down onto the ground and covered his mouth. His eyes were wide open now but dazed.

"Shhhh."

He looked at me in confusion but complied anyway. I slid my arm under his and rested him on my shoulder. He was a lot more help this time with me lifting him, him not being drunk and all. He got a little dizzy but I brought him back. I looked up at his wandering eyes that couldn't seem to fix one thing. I grabbed his chin and faced him towards me, his eyes stopped spinning and locked with mine.

"Come on," I said.

I removed his arm from over my should and held onto it so that I could try and get him to walk on his own. I had to try and get him up the stairs which was right in front of the door. She would see us right away. I moved us both through the living room and right up to the doorway that folded directly to the stairs.

"Come on, she has to be awake, I will wake her up," Julie said.

"No no, she has had a long day, you can come back in the morning."

"But.." Julie protested.

"No buts, get gone now." Grandma shooed her off the porch like a fly and Julie sighed and left.

Right as the door clicked shut I pulled Harry through the doorway and up the stairs, he made it up successfully and into my room. I shut the door locking it and turned to find Harry already sitting up against the wall that met with the head of my twin bed. His head tilted back onto the wall as he took deep long breaths. I walked over to the side of the bed and sat down on the edge. I reached up and lifted his head checking to see if there was a cut on the back of his head, nothing.

"Are you ok?" I asked.

"Yes, I don't think it is a concussion...I've had one before... this is just gonna be a headache for a while."

"How do you-"

"Jess," he sat up looking perfectly fine like that minute rest had fixed him," I'm fine, I've dealt with stuff like this on stage and had to go back on to perform."

I looked at him trying to see if he was lying to me but he wasn't, he was fine. I turned back away from him still blaming myself for what happened.

"Hey..." he said, "what's wrong?"

I didn't answer, but he did, and with something unexpected. He grabbed the outside of my left leg with his right hand and reached across me with his right and grabbed the outside of that leg too. He lifted me into the air and dropped me right on top of him. I was totally taken by surprise, I had to catch myself before I fell so I put my hands out to catch myself. My elbows locked and pushed my upper body up from falling right on top of Harry. I breathed hard shocked at what had just happened but it wasn't over. He looked directly into my eyes and smirked. He gripped my thighs harder and flipped me over. Now I was looking up at him over me.

His long strands of hair fell in front of his face blocking it from me even though he was only a couple of inches away. I smiled and grabbed those strands and tucked them behind his ears. I left my hand brushing his hair back and he turned his head and kissed the palm of my hand which made me stop. He looked down at me but didn't say anything, I started to breathe faster waiting for him to do something. I felt as if he was doing it on purpose but I was becoming restless. I felt his body press up against mine now, and I was gasping for air but trying not to show it. But then I became afraid, I can't go all the way, that isn't me.

"Harry, I-"

I stopped as he got even closer so that his last few dangling strands rested on my forehead.

"I know."