The Secret (Shawn Mendes & Austin Mahone fanfic)

Broken

Austin's POV:

I woke up this morning and for some reason, Violet was on my mind. I have come to the conclusion that we won't ever be together, she is happy with Shawn, so I stopped liking her. But for some reason... deep down, I felt like she was unhappy. I mean I know she is happy with Shawn and her family and friends and all, but I don't know. Maybe it's just my mind playing with me.
I roll over and pick up my phone. I go onto to Instagram and type in her name, and just look at all her pictures. Her most recent picture was of her and Shawn, with the caption "I'm so glad to see him again:)"
I keep scrolling and scrolling, not knowing exactly what I'm looking for. I stop at a picture, of her. A beautiful picture of her.
"Hey Austin, what are you doing...?" Alex says trying to look at my phone.
I quickly snap out of my thoughts and turn off my phone.
"Oh, nothing why?"
"I don't know, I just saw a picture of a girl on your screen so."
"Oh..."
He gives me a weird look and walks out of the room.
I turn my phone back on and dial Violets number.
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Violets POV:

I was dead asleep when I was awoken by my phone ringing. I open one eye to see whose calling. Austin? I slide my finger across the screen to answer.
"Hello?" I say in my gross morning voice.
"Hey Violet, what's up?"
"Um sleeping, it's 3:30 in the morning. What are you doing?"
"Oh, sorry. I forgot that we weren't in the same time zones. But I was calling to check on you... yanno. Just to see how you've been." He says.
"I've been fine. How about you?"
"Hmm okay I guess. Well I'll let you go back to sleep."
"Haha okay Austin."
"Hey, we need to get together soon, have lunch maybe?"
"Yeah sure, that'd be great! Maybe later next week one of us can fly down." I say.
"Okay! Bye."
"Bye Austin."
I press the end button and put my phone back on the table. I roll back into my sleeping position. I hear Shawn start to groan and I try not to move as much.
"Hey, what time is it?" Shawn asks.
"Almost 4."
"Who were you just talking to?"
"Austin. He called to 'check on me'"
"Oh that's weird. I'm going back to sleep now." Shawn says wrapping his arm around me and closing his eyes.

I tried going back to sleep. But my thoughts took me over.
I wondered if what I said to Austin was true, about being fine. I've realized that ever since the tour has ended, I've been really tired lately. I don't really want to do anything anymore. I mean I'm happy, at least I think I am.

Once I saw Shawn my entire attitude changed. He made me happy. Maybe I feel miserable because I haven't seen him in awhile. But that couldn't be. He is here right now, and I feel like I could crawl up in a ball and cry. I've done such a great job hiding my feelings.

I'm drowning in my thoughts and feelings and there is nobody to save me. Nobody knows that I've been feeling the way I have been.
What if it's because of my grandfathers passing?
Whatever it is, it's made me really depressed lately... and I don't know if i should tell Shawn or not.
I felt a rush of tears suddenly hit my eyes. I jumped out of bed and ran into the bathroom. I put down the toilet seat, sat down, covered my eyes my with my hands, and just cried. I don't even know why I'm crying. I sat there wondering what was going on with me, why have I been so sad? I've got everything I've ever wanted.
All of a sudden Shawn's voice interrupted my thoughts.
"Violet, what's wrong?"
I just stared at him, debating whether or not to tell him.
"Violet. What is wrong." He said with a serious voice.
"I don't know how to tell you..."
"Just tell me."
I looked at him for a second.
"Shawn, I, I think I'm depressed, and I have no idea why."
"How long have you thought this?"
"A few weeks..." I said looking at my hands.
He walked over to me and sat on the floor next to me. He put his hand on my face and used his thumb to wipe away the tears.
"I promise you, whatever you're going through, it will get better."
I kissed his cheek and held his hand while trying to calm down.
"Do you want to go back to sleep?"
"Yeah... I do." I said.
~next day
Shawn decided to take me to the doctors to see if I'm really depressed. Turns out I am. I don't know how long I will feel this way... but I just hope it isn't long. I know Shawn will help me through everything, he just has that personality where he can't just sit and watch someone fall apart.
I still haven't told my parents. I'm thinking about telling them later during dinner or something. I don't know how they'll react, or blame it on anyone else.
Austin and I have been texting back and forth all day. He seems very protective... I wonder if he still likes me. We've been trying to plan something so we could get together again. I'm thinking maybe he could fly to my house and we could all go to a private restaurant. I haven't told Shawn about this, but I'm sure he'll be all for it. I hope we can do it soon because I actually kind of miss Austin.