The awakening of bestotted love

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Loud noises surrounded a young boy who was lying on the dirty road. His limp body unable to move because of pain. No one bothered to even help the little young soul.

He slowly opened his eyes and looked around. His eyes wide with disbelief and than later filled with pain and agony.

He suddenly laughed even though his body was aching with pain, he couldn't stop himself from laughing at his cursed destiny.

Oh what a fool he was to think that his pain would stop after he killed himself. Life just did not stop giving him suprises.

The young boy was no other than wei ying who had killed himself. Somehow he was brought back to the start before his life had started to change. He thought just how funny it was.

He thinks how he could just die and be at peace. He no longer craves for things that should not be his. He is tired of everything.

Wei ying's pov:

Are the gods punishing me for all the evil that I have caused. Can't I just die? why must they play such a joke on me. Do they want me to break again.

I'm tired of trying and living like this. Living like I am fine but being dead inside. If I was not there maybe everyone could be happy. Maybe the jiang sect would not have been destroyed. Jiang cheng and shijie could have been happy. Everyone's life would have been perfect. Uncle jiang and madame yu would also be alive and jin ling would not have been orphaned because of me and my Lan Zhan......

Maybe he would have been the unsullied Hánguāng-jūn that everyone knew. He would not have saved a demon like me and would've lived a simple and happy life. Wouldn't he? He would fall for a nice person and would have started a beautiful family with them. Right?

But why... Just why can't I bring myself to let him go. Just why can't I let him leave me like everyone else. Just why does it hurt so much when I think of him leaving me. Just why do I want him to stay with me........

Was it too much to ask for his company. Was my love too little and sinful for us. Was hoping for a single light for my darkness a crime.

I love him and it hurts. It's hurts to know that we can't ever be together like how I have dreamed of. Those happy dreams of us are nothing but knives piercing my heart.

I'm sorry love that I have failed u. But I have left u a parting gift. A last memento of our love. The proof of my unconditional devotion and love our little A -yuan. I hope that he can give u the will to live and be happy like u deserve.

"I'm............. sorry.."

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Somewhere far away a young boy dressed in all white suddenly wakes up with his body drenched in cold sweat.  He frantically looks around trying to find something, dismissing the presence of the people present in the room.

He tries to get out of the bed when a warm hand stops him. He looks at the person who stopped him and then he is met with warm brown eyes.

He looks at the eyes that have yet to be tainted with guilt and pain. He wonders how long it had been since he had seen them so clear.

"wangji don't try to move. You have just recovered from a fever and it's better if u stay inside."

Wangji  does not give him a reply and just nods. He then looks around to find 2 more people in the room. His uncle being one and the other being the healer.

"Rest well then wangji, uncle and I shall leave so that you can rest. "

Without waiting for a response lan xichen exits the room along with the rest. His brother must have noticed that he wanted to be left alone.

He closes his eyes to think about all the events that have happened over the years.

After the death of his beloved he was devastated. Looking at the rundown place where his love lived was a huge blow to his fragile heart. He had lost his everything due to other people's greed.

Just when life seemed like a burden to him he found faith. He found his child hanging at the doors of life and death. He did all he could to save his sole reason of survival and by the pity of the gods a-yuan was saved.

Life after that was only cruel to him. He only lived for his child, for those little moments when a-yuan would shine like his mama. Lan Zhan would always look at the smile adorning his son's face and be thankful because it had always saved him from his nightmares.

Time had passed just like that and a-yuan had grown up to be a very good man. He was perfect for lan Zhan.

After the truth was exposed lan Zhan had been grief-stricken. He was guilty for not staying with his love,  guilty for not being able to save the smile.

Nie Huaisang had given him the remaining soul of wei ying. It had almost extinguished after the summoning had failed.

Lan Zhan doesn't know how many years passed after that. He only remembers a wandering god pitying him and giving him a chance to fix everything.

He had passed out from fever after his soul had entered into the young body.The first thing he did after waking up was to search for the wandering god.

He was given a chance and this time he vowed to not let anyone hurt his wei ying.