Everything Has Changed

After

Jen's entry

There is a knock at the door, Josh is really early. Probably because he's worried about be being ill. "Hey Jen, oh my god, you look so ill!" He says and hugs me. "Thanks." I say sarcastically. I quickly, without warning, run up the stairs. "Sorry!" I shout. I run into the bathroom, and I'm sick into the toilet. "Jen, are you okay?" Josh shouts up the stairs. I walk out of the bathroom, and put on my dressing gown. "Yes, I'm okay. I don't think I should go out tonight. What's wrong with me?"

"Erm, have you, erm, maybe thought that you might be p-pr-pregant?" He says. I can't tell his expression though. It's a bit of excitement, dread and worry. I run to the cupboard and grab a 'just in case' pregnancy test. "What if I am pregnant Josh, what will happen? And we both know who the dad is.." I stare at him. "Then I'll help you through it. I'll support you. No matter what." He kisses me. I walk up the stairs, go to the toilet and take the test.

I pace up and down the bathroom. I can't breath. What will happen? If I am pregnant? So many questions fly through my head. The test is ready. I walk over to it. My hands trembling. I would love a child, but I don't know what I'd be like. Of course, I'd keep it. Already, I'm excited but yet, I'm nervous. Life won't be the same. I look over at the test.

It's positive.