Make You Mine (Big Time Rush - Jagan)

Chapter Ten

To say that Logan was confused, was an understatement. Logan was literally freaking out.

Last night, Logan had completely forgotten about the drama that went between him and Jett and ended up kissing James. He forgot about the five years that they had been separated just because he thought he still loved James. And okay, maybe deep down Logan still did love James. But it's been five years and there was no way Logan was going to admit out loud that he still loved James.

But James had told him. James had given up on the years that separated them and told him that he loved him. And to hear that James was going to love him forever, Logan was scared. Logan didn't want to have to power to break James' heart by telling him that he didn't feel the same. Logan didn't want to even know that James still loved him because it was more than just the two of them and their feelings that he had to worry about.

He had to worry about Jasmine and what she thought about the whole situation. He had to worry and the years that they hadn't seen each other, because they – at least Logan – had changed since high school. He also had to worry about the broken heart that he had after James never went after him back in high school. It was a two way street; even if Logan didn't go after James – he had his reasons –, James still could have went and found him. It wasn't like Logan was hiding from him.

But even if he was denying the fact that James was still in love with him, Logan couldn't bring himself to forget about the way he had loved James back in high school. James had been his first love; and he always will have a place in his heart. But Logan wasn't going to throw away everything that he had turned his life into.

Sure, he may not be the doctor that he used to want to be. And sure, Logan wasn't really doing something that he loved, he lost his stuff, lost his fiancé. But Logan wouldn't change anything in his life because he had Jasmine and he loved her so much, it didn't matter if he ever found someone else for him to love. As long as he had Jasmine by his side.

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"What's making my daddy sad?"

That's been the one question coming from Jasmine since the bath she had the night before. It wasn't that the three of them had been ignoring her or not wanting to answer her because they definitely did; they felt bad that she had to see her father the way that he's been. It's just that they weren't really sure what to tell her; Logan had stayed up late, curled up on Kendall's side, begging them not to tell Jasmine what Jett had done.

And the truth was…they all knew that part of it was because of what happened between Logan and James the night before. James had told him that he loved him, and it was probably the worst – or best – moment for him to do that.

Kendall and Carlos had felt bad for Logan for having to hear that the person that he once loved still loves him, even after five years. But they also felt bad for James, because he had to see the one the he loved this upset. But even though they felt bad for them, they didn't want to piss of Logan and go tell Jasmine what was making her father cry; even if that meant having to hear her ask about it every couple minutes.

"Jazzy," Carlos began, turning around in the car to look at her face. "Your daddy's just a little upset at the moment. I guaranty, though, that he's gonna be okay soon."

"You promise?"

Carlos knew better than to promise something like that to a five year old. He knew that he couldn't promise anything like that, because he honestly didn't know whether or not Logan will be okay; Logan was really upset about Jett leaving him and it would take a lot more than just crying for a few days, to fix his broken heart.

But Jasmine was looking at him with those big puppy dog eyes – that could very well rival those of his husbands – and Carlos didn't know how to deny her anything. So, he simply took a chance and promised her the one thing that was very unlikely to happen soon.