Make You Mine (Big Time Rush - Jagan)

Chapter Nine

Logan wasn't sure how long he had lain underneath his blankets crying before James cautiously walked into the room, but at first Logan didn't care. He allowed James to pull him into a sitting position and wrap his arms around Logan's shoulders, pulling Logan into his chest. Logan ended up clinging to James, trying to calm himself down enough to look up into James' face and apologize for staining his shirt with his tears, but was unsuccessful when loud sobs escaped his mouth.

Eventually, though, he calmed down enough to apologize, which immediately was dismissed with a wave of his hand and a gentle smile. But that only seemed to piss off Logan. Why was James being so nice?, Logan thought as he looked away from James' smile down towards his hands that were folded up in his lap.

And okay, maybe Logan was being a little inconsiderate, considering James actually still had feelings for him; Logan knew that just by the way James looked at him every second of the day. But he couldn't understand why James still felt that way, it had been five year – five long years – since they've seen each other and expressed how much they cared about each other. Surely, James couldn't have kept those feelings for that long and not even go searching for Logan to claim what was rightfully his, not Jett's; Logan's heart.

But even if Logan's heart belonged to James, he wasn't about to admit anything. It had been way too long since the last time they've been called a couple and Logan didn't want to throw everything away just because he wanted to be with something that may or may not still be in love with him.

And, Logan didn't want to admit, he was scared. What happens if thing did work out but Jasmine didn't like James? What was Logan supposed to do at that? He wasn't about to figure out what he would do if that happened.

So, as Logan calmed down, he pushed himself away from James and got up from the bed and walked out of the room, leaving a very confused James behind.

As Logan made his way downstairs, he could hear Jasmine's laugh ring throughout the house. He smiled at the sound of it as he rounded the corner and spotted Jasmine and Carlos sitting at the dining room table. The two of them seemed oblivious to what was around them as they played around with Jasmine's dolls. He could smell food cooking from in the kitchen, so he turned and made his way into the kitchen.

"What are you cooking?" Logan asked, spotting Kendall chopping up some vegetables to put in a salad.

"Logan!" Kendall exclaimed, jumping at the sound of Logan's voice and quickly turned around to send a glare towards him. "Don't sneak up on people!"

"Sorry, I didn't realize I was being so quiet…" Logan said, forcing a smile.

"How are you?"

The worry was evident in Kendall's voice made Logan feel bad for worrying him, so he lied. "I'm fine! Just a little tired."

Kendall didn't believe Logan, but left it at that as he turned back to the vegetables that he was previously cutting in order to not push it any further.

"Carlos says that your guys' anniversary is today; happy anniversary!" Logan said, allowing a real smile to show up on his face.

"Thanks!" Kendall said, grateful for the real smile that Logan threw his way. "I wanted to do something special for him, so I'm making dinner."

"I'm sorry that I ruined your guys' anniversary…" Logan said, tears welling up in his eyes as the words slipped passed his lips before he could stop them. He had completely forgotten about the two of them being married the whole time he's been here, and knowing that they had been taking care of Jasmine because of him was a little upsetting. Even though it wasn't his fault that Jett had broken up with him the way that he had, he still couldn't help but feel like he had ruined their anniversary.