Anime Oneshot(male Reader)

Levi x Male reader

Very occ levi

Trigger warning: Suicide and depression and also a hint of self hate for taste.

"Hey Y/n.Do you think we would be free after this?" Levi asked sitting beside Y/n who was looking at the titans crawling the wall,wanting to eat the people above.Y/n looked back at Levi, smiling softly at him
"I don't know Levi but I know one thing for sure,I'll always be there by your side."
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"I'm sorry."
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Levi cried,hugging tightly at Y/n who hugged back,comforting the man who was in grief.They stood there in the garden of red as the bones of the titan that Levi slayed,stayed behind them,unmoving.
The heads of the fallen soilders seems to moved as their eyes.They pierced through Y/n's back like arrows raining down apon Y/n.
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"Should have be me,Not them."
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Y/n smiled bitterly,looking at the titan who was coming toward Y/n at full speed.
"Why does it looks like her?"
Y/n thought as he jumped off his horse and glided through the air,toward the titan,in a moment,he made eye-content with the titan.He then slashed titan's knees as it falls down,Y/n then runned toward the nape aera.
He slashed the nape as the titan screamed and started to evaporate into dust.Loads of heat came off of the ttian as Y/n jumped of off the titan.He then looked into the titan's e/c eyes for a moment and stopped.He couldn't do it.He couldn't kill it.It resembled so much like his mother who was bed ridden for a long time.Y/n left the home because he wasn't able to take care of her.(Y/n is a shitty son). He left her to die...
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"Why am I here?I don't deserve this."
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Y/n couldn't kill the titan whose hand is now reaching toward the crying y/n who is kneeling down,looking at the titan,overwhelmed with grief,sadness and guilt.Y/n shouted for his mother,screaming apologies as he cries,regretting very thing about his life,regretting the fact that he was born.His mother ahould have lived a good life if he wasn't born.She wouldn't get the virus if Y/n just listen to her.She would not have to bear the heartbreak of her son leaving her.

Y/n cried even futher as he thinks about how his mother would react about him disappearimg suddenly.Those eyes that held bravery,dedication,kindness,love would be replaced by worry,anger,sadnees,grief,lost.Y/n's heart clenched as the thought about his mother's sleepless nights waiting for him.looking at the door,waiting for her son to show up with a smile and a bright cheer.Y/n screamed out their mother as he apologized.Not noticing the soilders who were distracting the titab,shouting at Y/n to come to his senses and runned.Of course,Y/n didn't.He just kneeled there,crying.
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"She doesn't deserve this."
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The titan was killed as Y/n just kneeled in front of it,sobbing.The soilders who survived walked toward Y/n with anger and disbelief.
The man who is known to rival the humanity's strongest.The man who Levi have considered equal to him.The man who managed to capture many titans alive to the wall.A man known for his leadership and selfless act.The man who stole the heart of humanity is crying in front of him,shouting and calling out for his mother.The soilder looked down at Y/n who was just looking at the decaying corpse of tje titan and the corspes of the soilders who died trying to save Y/n.Y/n just came back to his senses a moment after the titan died.Y/n got up and walked toward the gruesome sence weakly,smiling.

"What a nice garden."Y/n complimented,looking down at the corspe of his friend who have been laided dead,hit by the titan's hands and broke his nose.Y/n smiled down at the corspe.

"What are you doing in those flowers?Get up (friend name).Get up."y/n said warmly waiting for a reaction but there is nothing.