𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐁𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐌𝐞 (𝐑𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐭 𝐃𝐨𝐰𝐧𝐞𝐲 𝐉𝐫. 𝐗 𝐘/𝐧)

~ What the fuck

(Forgot what day we're in so time skip to next Wednesday where you don't have Mr. Downey for the whole week)

Bored, so fucking bored. I check the time on my phone and it reads 12:08 am. I can't fucking sleep. Soon I'll just kill myself because I'm so done with everything at the moment. I turned in my project and so did the others so that's off my shoulders. I tilt my head to look at Britney sleeping, a smile appears on my lips and I look back up at the ceiling trying to get some rest.

Nothing. I don't feel tired, I feel numb. Numb is all I feel. What are we? What are me and Mr. Downey? I mean he never asked if I could be his girlfriend, he just made a move. Speaking of Mr. Downey we haven't spoken to each other since the date. Wonder what he's doing now. Actually, he's probably asleep.

Maybe I should text him, should I? He's probably not gonna pick up. I sat up and got lonely having no one with me.

Mr. Downey always gave me that comfort I never had and it's crazy cause I never had that feeling with anyone. Even though I only went out with one guy called Micheal, but we never had sex, we just kissed. I guess it was just a phase, you know you go through relationships but turns out it wasn't the one and never had a spark. Micheal and I used to hang out a lot in highschool but when we got through the last year of highschool, we got distant and I found out he was cheating on me.

Anyway, enough about me and Micheal. Maybe I should go to Mr. Downey to surprise him, but what if he doesn't open the door because he's asleep. The way I hate overthinking I mean who doesn't. I get up and go in front of the mirror, and check myself out, who wouldn't want me? Who's that sexy thing standing over there? That's me. Yes sometimes I could be cocky and full of myself, but in a good way, like I don't think I'm better than everyone I think I look just as good as them you know? The day I came to the front of the class to give Mr. Downey my answer, obviously nervous, I was biting my sleeve and my legs couldn't let me get up, but it's not that I thought that I didn't look good, it's the feeling that my answer would be wrong and the class would laugh.

Okay, you know what? I'm gonna go see Mr. Downey. I take a black sweater with a grey plain tank top on the bottom and jeans. I walk out of the dorm slowly and quietly trying not to wake up Britney. I walk to my car with my keys in hand and a pepper spray just in case, cause I don't usually go out at fucking 12 in the morning but I would do anything for Downey. I enter my car and take off while Lookalike by Conan Gray plays on the radio and I turn it down a bit, but not too much so I can still hear it. I should probably just get an apartment, college dorms are expensive and I can't keep paying for the dorm. Maybe I can get Britney to live with me, we would save a lot of money.

Let's go back to the summer night

When we met eyes, it's like a movie line

Kissin' underneath the city lights

But now you're laying in another guy's arms

'Cause I'm all gone

This song is so underrated oh my fucking god.

But when you look in his eyes

Do you think of mine?

And when you look at that smile

Do I cross your mind?

I know in your head

You see me instead

'Cause he looks a lot like I did back then

Baby don't lie

He's just a lookalike