My new start (Tubbo x Y/N)

Jealousy ?

‼️Slightly sad/depressing TW ???‼️

I headed back home, covered in different paint colors.
I tried to sneak silently so no one will see me like that but as was about to open the bathroom's door, it opened itself.
With Tubbo behind it.

We could see by his wet hair he just got out of shower. His face was a bit red from hot water and was holding a towel behind his head.
"....hi...Tubs !"
"Woah, did you get in a fight with a rainbow ??"
"I guess we could say that"
"Glad you had a great time! How is your painting doing ?"
"Great ! I think it is one of my greatest"
"I hope to see it soon, I'll let you use the bathroom" He said, putting is towel around my neck.
"You smell nice by the way" I winked before closing the door behind me.

Tubbo's POV :

"You smell nice by the way"
OK. Simp mode activates.
THAT WINK WAS SO HOT HUUUUU-
Just...breathe ?? HOW do I BreAThe ????
I mean, I just got out of the shower so it's kind of normal but still, she wasn't obligated to say it...
I like this about her, she's so spontaneous.

But I can't forget she's maybe into her friend guy...Aaron was it ?
Uuugh why is it so complicated ?

A call with my friends was really needed right now.
"Hi boys" I said, starting the discord call
"Oh hello !" Ranboo greeted
"AYUP BIG MAN and Ranboo" shouted Tommy
"Are you doing okay Tubbo ?"
"I think yes ? Uuuuh you remember Y/N right ?"
"You mean baguette woman ??"
I giggled "Yes Tommy. Well, you see,  I can't understand what's happening since she met her guy friend..."
"What do you mean ?"
"It's kind of like, she's drifting away..."
"From what pal ? Be clear"
"....-i hesitated a bit- from me ? I guess."
"Are you jealous?"
"What ? No ? It's normal for her to have friends but it's a really reeeeeeally good one here. I don't see her at school as much as we used to. And when home she's always texting him."
"Man...you're totally jealous"
"Yup."
"But I have friends too so why would I feel jealousy over her ?"
"Because it's not her that you envy, it's him Big man"
I paused, to catch my breath, and think.

Do I really envy Aaron ?
I'm so selfish, like Y/N is meant to be my friend only...
Why do I feel like running behind them, always late.

"You should...speak to her ?"
"Or him !"
"Not sure about that Tommy"
"He seems to be cool and all but I guess you're right guys...Huuu...I have to do something right now. Thanks for the talk ! See ya"
I didn't even bother letting them say goodbye before ending call.

I felt like shit.
Those sadness waves were rushing through me like I was drowning in a ocean during a storm.
Some tears were coming down my cheeks, I couldn't stop them.
Why do I feel so sad ???
Why can't I understand myself ?

Last thing I remembered was falling asleep.

Y/N POV:

I gently opened Tubbo's door, he didn't answered after knocking so I thought I might check if he's doing fine.

"Toobs are you-"
He was sleeping. Curled up like a helpless child.
I approached him, looking at his soft face.
It is then I saw it, a single tear was rolling down his soft skin. It seemed like it wasn't the first one.

This hurt me so much.
Seeing him like that was so painful, did he cried himself to sleep ?
Was he upset ?
My body moved on its own, pulling myself close to him. Hugging him tightly from the back and gently stroking his fluffy hair.

"I-I'm...sorry..Don- leave m-me I-..."
Tubbo had a big nightmare mumbling in heavy breaths.
"Shhh shhh it's okay Tubbo. I'm here. You're safe and not alone. We are together. Everything is fine."
I spend the night repeating this slowly to him.

I could do anything for him. And not only to make him feel better but because I truly care about him.

That night, I realized Tubbo meant more than I thought.
More than a comrade, a friend or brother.
He is the protagonist. Of our world.
The one we created together, my own escapism.

Tubbo is my sun, always shining, even in the dark.
Or when he's scared or after some silly fights we could have. He's always smiling, comforting and sweet to me.
So seeing him cry for the first time shattered my heart.

Because...Tubbo meant the world. My world.

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