Losing Her Mate (Book 2 of The Red Dawn Trilogy )

Chapter SIXTEEN

It's been two weeks since James and I break began and I've finally gotten into a groove I like. The first few days were pretty brutal, full of moping and junk food pig outs. I avoided both Dallas and James like plagues, the only way I knew of their improving conditions was when I mind-linked Doctor Gage. After I got all of the sulking out of my system I devised a plan to get my life and Red Dawn back in order. I can feel that my wolf is angry with me for letting James go but there isn't much I can do about it, so half the time she spends griping at me and the other half checking on our pup.

Christy has helped me with all things baby related including fixing up a nursery in my room, purchasing clothes, diapers, those weird teddy bears that emits noises that sound like a woman's womb, etc. I have decided to not get a sonogram, I want the gender to be a surprise so Christy and I have just been using neutral colors to decorate.

I only have a couple of months left now and the baby has gotten more sprightly as the days go on. Sometimes at night I have trouble sleeping because apparently the baby is having all night dance parties.

In the days that have passed I've finally fully come to terms with my pregnancy. I've been reading baby literature, talking to Gage about birthing procedures and bonding with my little one through my maternal link. I honestly think I'm ready to be a mommy and I'm ready to give my child the love and life they deserve.

I've also made my rounds around the pack setting their minds at ease . Many members  especially the older ones, still give me the stink eye but most seem to be accepting and are adjusting to my non-traditional condition.

Yep everything is going great except that I still miss my mate. I ache for him with with every breath and beat of my heart.

James is mostly healed now. He moved out of our room once he was release. He did it while I was out shopping with Christy. I came back to our room to find all of his belongings gone without a note or anything, that was a particular hard night for me. I spent most of it crying and receiving solace from my baby.

I've seen him since that day in passing. I can still see hurt in his eyes but we manage to give each other friendly stiff nods and barely there smiles. We haven't attempted conversation yet, I don't think either of us are ready for that yet.

Lately I've been too busy to check up on him but much to my chagrin I've heard through the grapevine that James has become a pack liaison for our newest member Renee Appleway. He's been helping her get acclimated to pack life and helping her make friends. The pair have also become the subject of pack gossip. Everyone seems to think they are in a steamy relationship. I do my best to ignore it all.

Overall the days have been uneventful there's been no rogue attacks or drama and today is no different. Right now I'm siting in my office having a meeting with Dallas and my lead pack enforcer Jared discussing pack business.

"Why do you need use of the cells?" I direct my question to Jared. It is a very strange request he asked for. As far as I knew we had no captured rogues to detain which is what the holding cells are usually for.

"It may be a bit drastic but I would like to use one to monitor a pack mate. I know they are equipped with surveillance equipment and restraints which will help us with the person."

"What have they done to warrant such extremes?" Dallas ask starring at Jared dubiety.

I look over to Dallas he's looking really good today. He had lost a few pounds in the hospital but now they're all back. His hair is a little longer now reaching his ears and covering his new hairline scars. I think he grew it out because he's self conscious of his now marred face. Personally I don't think they're that noticeable he's still just as sexy but it's hard to convince someone with such a big ego.