Losing Her Mate (Book 2 of The Red Dawn Trilogy )

Chapter TWELVE

How do I respond to her desperate desire to end her life. I want to make this better but I also I don't want to give her some nonsense lines. I need her to truly understand that she deserves to live and be happy. After sitting here talking with her and witnessing her fragile state, I know one thing is for certain.

I won't let her die.

I haven't even known this woman for more than 30 minutes but her life matters and she's become a very important part of mine. I still don't even know her name but she's earned the right to the world's wonders and gifts after putting up with her abusers and I'm going to do my best to show them to her.

"Then they win don't you see that"

"I don't care anymore!" she yells so loudly that birds from nearby trees take off in fright. Her face has become red and her hands are clenched so tightly her knuckles are white. "Since when did my life become a game of who wins and loses?"

"For those of us at the bottom of the food chain you have to treat life like a game or you die it's as simple as that. I know that you know this and  that you do care. Let me ask you a question, you hate them right?"

Confusion settles on her face "What does that have to do wit-"

"Just answer the question"

Her eyes narrow and begin to glow "Of course I fucking hate them. I hope they burn for what they did to me." The heat from her words are so malevolent and strong I flinch at the searing intensity that hits me. You can't fake that type of rage.

"Exactly and many people would feel that way. I don't doubt for a moment if the opportunity presented itself to make them suffer you wouldn't hesitate. I'm guessing that's exactly why you are alive today, a chance at pay back or you would have killed yourself long ago." She quickly adverts her eyes and turns her focus to a monarch butterfly floating by. She takes a deep breath and schools her face so I can't read it. She's hiding something.

"What aren't you telling me? Something else caused your depression something deeper and that's what broke you."

"Nope you're wrong I wanted revenge but I just realized it was futile. Look at me I can't even walk without assistance. I have no offense. After my leg was taken even my wolf lost the will to fight. There's no use hoping for something that won't happen."

I shake my head at her concerns "There's many ways to get revenge and I wasn't talking about the assaulting variety."

"It's the only kind that fits. I've dreamed of making them the victims for years just so they can feel how I felt. You think they don't deserve it?"

"Of course they deserve it. You have no idea how much will power I'm exerting right now to not track them down and rips they're hearts out through they're mouths for what they did to you." I growl out. How could she insinuate that I think they should get a pass for their cruelty. My body grows taunt pumping out power and my wolf is at the surface.

Terror crashes onto her face and she starts to scoots away from me using her hands. I reach out towards her and whimper at her reaction.

My instinctual response startles me and I drop my hand.

Why do I care so much about her rejection? I shake my my head and settle myself. I don't want her to fear me I need to relax.

"I'm sorry about that but what they did to you really upset my wolf and I but my wants are on hold for now. At this moment my true concern is you not them" I turn away from her and try to appear as harmless as possible.

Silence soon descends once more but now its accompanied by thick choking tension. I want to bang my head with my fist at my stupidity. I feel like crap that I ruined the camaraderie we were beginning to build. We sit for a few long minutes until her soft voices reaches my ears once again.