Lies We Tell

Chapter 6

Aurora

One week later.....

"Are you ready, Aurora?" Ignazio asked coming into the room while I was still busy trying to zip up my dress. The dress was beautiful with its sequence work and red shade. 

It had been years since I had worn this color but once I had worn it felt like to be a new me. As if the color just flowed back into my life just from a change. Ignazio's sister had insisted that this dress was the one made for me. If it wasn't for them, I surely wouldn't have had the courage to get it.

"Yeah just done but I need some help in zipping this up," I told him still trying my best to zip it up. His reply didn't come but when I turned around he was looking at me as coming out of the closet. Walking towards me our eyes connected and I saw the emotions in them. Every step he took closer just pulled me towards him. I wanted to store this feeling deep inside. Store this pull in me forever just to make my life feel easier. All the pain I carried inside of me I just wanted it to end and embrace that we could be together and happy. That sometimes the first love couldn't be the last one and I could move on.

A glimpse of Dave walking towards me flashed through my eyes. His dark hair and smile that made my insides melt were all I saw for a moment. The black suit he had worn at the wedding of his friend was all I saw. He had confessed his love for me that day.

I remember those brown eyes of his, teary as we danced while he promised me that I would be his only one. He had confessed that I would be the only woman he would ever love. The only woman he would propose to and marry. That night I had been bound to him by the love we shared and the sacred promises that were ours. We had laid in bed and kissed our way through eyes filled with love and promises of the future.

Our relationship never moved past the kisses and touching. We wanted to wait for my first time and when we were in love it just didn't matter. Sex didn't define our love for each other. It was deep inside about what we felt.

My eyes tear up thinking how I broke all those promises. How I shattered our love and left without a word? How I ran away without any reason? All the sacred promises between us, I broke them and moved forward. I had left behind everything, our friends and him because it pained me altogether. It hurt deep inside and it always will. I had sacrificed my heart for my family, for a love that ran deeper in my veins.

I wish to never face him because seeing him would tear me apart. It would tear both of us apart and I would never want to hurt him like that now.

"Aurora," I looked up with teary eyes to see Ignazio in front of me. For a moment I was lost in the feelings. I wanted to hate him, hurt him and leave him. Slap him as I did once for destroying my life. Scratch his face and hurt him. The ugly me wanted to make everyone bleed who brought me here whether it be his father or mine.

I was blinded by the fog of emotions. Turning away I looked at myself in the mirror. The woman I once was lost and gone. In place of her stood someone else, a woman who knows the reality of life. One who had made sacrifices.

My eyes diverted to him in the mirror. He was looking at me with his face devoid of emotions, but his eyes telling a thousand words. He saw the emotions in mine. I knew he did and I couldn't meet those eyes.

Looking away I looked at myself, blinking my eyes I felt the fog clear. The ugly emotions and me receding back to some corner inside of me.

He had always been good to me. Nothing mattered to him even though how I hurt him. He had forgiven me. Never a complaint on his lips, never a word against me to his family. How could I hurt him when he had given me what I needed?