I'm Sorry - Chapter 18

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Y/N's POV

We arrived at Jisung's room. Ten grabbed the door handle and then pushed it open. I assume that vampire strength is the reason he was able to open the door. I looked in the room and saw Jisung back in the corner of the room like when I saw him earlier.

"Ten, can I talk to him alone?" I ask.

"Alright, I'll be in my room" Ten says.

Ten walked back to his room. I walked into Jisung's room and then shut the door.

"Can I turn on the lights?" I ask.

"Yeah" Jisung says with a small voice.

I turned on the lights and Jisung curled in the corner with tear stained cheeks. I started to walk closer to him when he said.

"Please, don't come any closer. I don't want to hurt you again."

"You won't hurt me, you didn't hurt me" I say.

"Don't lie, I did hurt you, you screamed. You passed out, don't tell me that I didn't hurt you" Jisung says.

"You did what I asked you to do. Yes, it did hurt, it was very painful but I told you to do it. It's not your fault, don't blame yourself, blame me. It was me who told you to do it, you didn't want to hurt me but I kept pushing, it is me to blame" I say.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" Jisung says, looking like he is about to cry.

"No, you don't have anything to apologise for. I'm sorry, it was my fault. I'm so sorry for making you think that it was your fault, I'm sorry that you have been crying because of me, I'm sorry for making you blame yourself" I say.

"I'm sorry that I hurt you, I'm sorry for making you pass out from blood loss, I'm sorry that I put you in so much pain" Jisung says, a tear falling from his eye.

"Stop apologising to me, you haven't done anything wrong. Don't apologise for something that wasn't your fault, I don't want you thinking this was your fault" I say.

I put my hand on his cheek and wiped the tear off of his cheek. He grabbed my waist and pulled me close to him, wrapping his arms around me and started crying more.

"Why are you so nice to me? I'm a monster" Jisung says.

"Don't say that, don't ever say that again. You are not a monster, you are so sweet, you could never be a monster. So what if you are a vampire, that doesn't define who you are" I say.

"You are too sweet for this world, it doesn't deserve you, we don't deserve you" Jisung says.

"I have a question, how old are you?" I ask.

He laughed a little bit at my change of topic.

"I'm 200 years old, I know, I'm so old" Jisung says.

"You're what? 200 years old? No way, this is unfair. How can you be so handsome yet old at the same time?" I ask.

"vampires stop ageing at a certain age" Jisung says.

"I wish I could stop ageing" I say.

"It's not that fun, I'll never be able to grow old with a loved one" Jisung says.

"have you met your soulmate?" I ask.

"Yup, she's amazing" Jisung says with a smile on his face.

I don't know why it hurts to hear that. First Ten and now Jisung, why does it hurt hearing that the have found their soul mates, I should be happy for them, not sad.

"I'm happy for you" I say with a fake smile.

"I'll never be able to grow old with her though, unless I turn her into a vampire" Jisung says.

"You'll figure something out, you love her and that's all that matters" I say, looking away from him.

That's when I felt Jisung put his hand on my cheek. I looked at him and saw that he was really close to my face. Then that's when I felt something soft touching my lips.

Jisung is kissing me.

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Hello lovelies, how are you doing today?

It's currently 00:20 right now and I'm still not sleeping but who actually sleeps?

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