So close yet so far

Ch.9

Alexander's POV:
I lead Y/N downstairs after our little session, and being completely honest I don't know what happened back there. I started it and kept going, I couldn't stop, she's like a drug, so addicting, I need to get a hold of myself we aren't even official yet we never had the wedding and I'm already falling too hard. Don't get me started on the soft spot that popped up when I first met her, like when her mom was gonna slap her I couldn't let it happen, my body, mind and soul wouldn't let it. That's why I got rid of that Jackson kid, he was a danger to her and I couldn't let him get his hands on her.

We sit at the table and it looks like my mom made some Shepherds pie (authors favorite food) it looks so good I automatically dug in after praying, I look up to see Y/N lost in her thoughts and chewing extra slowly on her food. I wonder what she's thinking about. Just after that thought she looks up and me and automatically looks away, weird usually she'd just flip me off when she caught me looking at her.

Y/N POV:
We went to sit down at the table we prayed and started eating I smiled at Alex just digging in he must've been hungry, then I look up to see both his parents staring at me or more specifically my neck and shoulders and jaw let's just say Alex really got adventurous, just thinking about it makes me hot. I wonder how far it would've gone if Maria didn't call for dinner, shit snap out of it. I look up to see Alex looking at me studying my face I look away so fast I think my neck cracked, shit we still have to share the same bed tonight, this is gonna be torture.

"So did you get rid of that Jackson kid" Nathan blurts out, Alex eyes widen and he automatically look at me "what do you mean get rid of Jackson" I say and Alex starts talking   
"Y/N I can explain-" I cut him off "shut up " he shuts up and looks down "Let's go" I grab him buy his ear and drag him towards the stairs "I'm sorry Maria and Nathan but we have something to discuss". When we reach upstairs I let go of his ear and he starts to rub it "Start talking" is all I have to say before he just out with it.

"I killed Jackson" I paused it was like something just stabbed me right through my chest "what do you mean" he tries to grab my hand but I back up "no don't touch me your a murderer" He looked hurt by my words but it's true "is that why you didn't want me going places, you didn't want me to find out?" I ask tears already running down my face, that nice friendly Alex was like a pigment of my imagination and here standing in front of me was a criminal, a murderer "No baby that's not why" he had picked up a habit of calling me baby but I'm not in for it right now "I'm not your baby I don't even know who you really are as a matter of fact I don't know anything about you" I said he just stood there dumbfounded "you want to know who I really am? Fine I'm Alexander Du pen Chang the heir of the Japanese mafia" my heart dropped the Du Pen Chang Mafia, my dad used to read about them to me as a child and now that I think of it Nathan does look like the little boy in the pictures from the book of mafia I always thought he was so cool cause he only hurt people who hurt others and he would leave innocent people alone.
(MLB fandom don't come for me)

"But how, I thought that mafia was in New York?" I say "it was but a couple of us came for you we've been watching you for a while your the perfect mafia queen, your smart, active, good at fighting, stubborn, very beautiful literally all the qualities need for a mafia queen" I stopped listening at mafia queen he want me to be part of a mafia? I would never, I could never, why did he think this was ok? They kill people they're evil, I can't do this, I have to get away.

"I have to go" I try to walk past him but he grabs my hand "you can't leave me please I need you" is this nigga fucking stupid we literally met 2 months ago "let me go I'm going to my brother and his friends house" and he says "but they're all guys" "tch being with all guys is safer than living with a murderer" after I say that he pins me against the wall and says "you don't understand Y/N I love you and I'm not about to let you just leave like that please your breaking my heart right now please don't leave me" he says with tears running down his face, now he's making me feel bad. Grandma always said my big heart was gonna be my down fall. "I'm not leaving" I sighed and he got up and hugged me so hard I was losing my breath.

" I'm so sorry I didn't tell you before it's just I was scared of losing you" I just nod in acknowledgement "just don't hurt anymore innocent people" he looks at me confused "he wasn't innocent at first I was just gonna threaten him but then I found out that he raped 3 girls at your school and made you his next target, he all but innocent" "oh" I responded, he takes my hand and drags me to the bed. To be honest I can't say he was the only one who caught feelings I did catch feelings for him over these past few months I'm not gonna say it's love but it's feelings. "What are you thinking about" he asks somehow now hovering over me. "Nothing don't worry about it" I say " well there's something we didn't finish" damn I thought he forgot " I don't know what your talking about" I say with a tiny smirk "well let me show you"

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Cliff hanger? Yes ma'am
1101 word count 💅🏾✨
The song at the top is one of my favorite song when I first heard it I cried but that's besides the point
K bye💕