So close yet so far

Ch.30

Y/N POV:
What the fuck was I thinking?!? Did I just do that? I DONT EVEN KNOW THIS GUY. "You ok?" He ask while still holding me by my waist then I noticed something. I'm sitting on his lap, and he's still hard.

I tried to get up but he pulled me back down onto his lap "I'm sorry I don't know what came over me but that wasn't me" I said hurriedly and he laughed. This nigga deadass sat here and laughed at me. "I know love" he said a little too calmly.

"You know?" I asked "baby this isn't your lifestyle and I can clearly see that" he says and look down and my eyes widen at how big he is, "don't worry about that I'll handle it later" he says and I just nod and look away.

"So what brings you here to work at a strip club love" he asks me " I'm on the run" I say and he scrunches his eyebrows together " from?" He asks me and I feel my eyes begin to tear up and try to get up again "hey hey you don't have to tell me I'm sorry for asking" he says hugging me tightly but still softly.

It felt safe in his arms, I haven't felt this way in months, before Alex...

All my life all I've ever really longed for was a safe male figure the one my dad wasn't and the one I thought Alexander would be and now here I feel safe in the arms of a man I don't even know.

He's so warm, and buff damn I didn't even notice how buff he was until now, he's actually really big I wonder how tall he is standing. Alexander was tall.

Just thinking of him again brought tears to my eyes, fuck you alexander I'll do just fine without, I just wish I didn't love you so much. "I have to go" I say my voice cracking in the process. I get up and he actually let me go this time. "Would you like me to walk you home it's pretty dark out now" he offered.

"No thanks" I said hurriedly throwing my over sized hoodie that Veronica left in the room back on. "Shit" I mumble while looking around for my pants. "Here" he throws me a pair of sweatpants from his desk "you can't seriously think this is gonna fit me" I say looking at him in disbelief. He sighs and walks over to me taking the pants out my hands.

He bends over at my feet holding out the pants for me to put my legs through and I do just that. As he's pulling up the pants, his fingers grazed my leg causing both of us to look up at each other. "Sorry" he mumbles with a small smirk. He rolled you the top of the sweat pants so much and it still doesn't fit.

As soon as he let go it fell straight to my feet and we both broke out into laughter. " ok let's try something else" he starts to pull off my hoodie and I grip it automatically. "Trust me I'm just trying to help you" he says cautiously.

"Right" I let go and he softly pulls it over my head then pulls a way bigger hoodie out of his desk. "Put your arms up" he says getting closer. "Am I understand arrest?" I ask jokingly "yes you have the rights to remain pretty" he says and we both start laughing again.

"That was so cheesy" I say in the middle of laughing. "Ok but seriously we need to get some clothes on you before I begin to act up" he says and I put my arms up, he slid the hoodie on over my head and the bottom fell down to my knees. "It was over sized on me so I knew it would cover you up" he says looking away. " well thank you" I say slightly flustered.

"Please let me drive you home it's really not safe out here" he pleads "it's also not safe to let a stranger drive me home" I debated he effortlessly lifts me up and sits me on his desk then bends over to eye level with me.

"ok listen I know that you don't trust me and you probably shouldn't, but I promise I would never hurt you" he says " what do you mean I probably shouldn't?" I question scooting back a little which he notices. "Please don't do that I don't want you to fear me" he says pleadingly "you would run from me if I told you so please take time to get to know me before I tell you" he says in a desperate tone.

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