The Hero Killings

3

Asher paced around the motel room as Carter watched him. "I can't tell if you're mad at me or the hair dye."

"I liked the blue...." Asher whined. "And this sucks..how'd she even find you?"

"I walked in and she was just there Asher. "I don't know what else to say don't be mad at me she refused to let me go without seeing you and she threatened to call the cops if I didn't. I wasn't going to loose you."

Asher hesitated before sitting down across from him. He felt funny the color wasn't his favorite and he was questioning why Valery said all those things. If she thought of him as a good person why did she leave him for dead. Carter stood and went to sit by Asher when he flinched.

Carter stepped back. "What was that?"

"Nothing. A shiver."

"This relationship won't work if you lie to me." Carter growled as he slowly lowered himself to be face to face with Asher. Asher shot up.

"Lie to you? When have I lied to you? For fucks sake..what are you on? What did she say to you?"

"You flinched."

"I..I guess I did okay...I'm sorry you still still scare me sometimes alright."

Carter cocked his head. "I scare you still? Even after all I've done, I've changed my lifestyle for you I've left my family behind. I've stopped eating human for you. I've started killing lowlifes for you. Why are you so adamant about that anyway? Why child predators and rapists when there's so many different options?"

"No..nothing.." Asher said turning his back to Carter. Carter cocked his head seeing Asher instantly shake. "Was just better then innocent people."

"Asher what...you're lying again. Be honest with me or this isn't going to work."

Asher twisted to look back at Carter tears running down his face.

"Is it because of what I did to you?" Carter asked stepping back.

"God damnit Carter no, no it isn't. Yes that's why you still scare me sometimes. Sometimes I have nightmares about our first time. I remember the cold of the rain..the feeling of your..your fluids, my blood and mud. I still have nightmares of you raping me and using me...but but now..now I have chosen you...I don't fear you raping me anymore. I don't fear that because the relationship we have is no longer master and slave but dominate and submissive. I don't let you touch me without consent anymore...you aren't why I wanted this... I still fear you'll get a craving for human and do whatever you can to get to it even if that means putting be back in a collar and making me do as you ask..." his hands tightened into balls, his nails digging into his fists. "I still fear that I'm going to wake up one day and you're going to be sick of asking for what you want and just take it..but this isn't why I choose those bastards for us to kill."

Carter clearly looked destroyed. He didn't realize Asher still had fear. He offered his lap but Asher stood staring at him. "I..I was abused by my uncle as a child....I wasn't always an only child. I had a sister, he abused us both, she didn't live through the experience. Your cock was not the first to touch me or be inside me but I liked to have thought of myself as a virgin until I decided I wanted you...Valery was my first real experience where I wanted it...but she wasn't you..."

Carter stood and quickly wrapped Asher into a hug. "Why didn't you tell me? I would have talked to you about it let you cry it out or something."

"He's still alive," Asher replied pulling away from Carter.

"So why haven't we killed him yet?"

"Because I wasn't strong enough yet. I'm barley holding myself together...I want to be strong for you I want to prove to you I'm..I'm worth keeping around. Valery left me for dead and didn't want me..we had planned to leave together but then she chose to leave without me...I wouldn't have gone with her I don't think...but sometimes I wonder what our lives would be like if she saw me as strong enough....."