The Hero Killings

21

I'm back lol, happy St. Patrick's Day to any who celebrate, its also my birthday so thats fun! 

                                                                                                                                                                                                         Asher woke hearing Carter messing with a zipper. "Carter..?"

"Hey honey, how are you?" Carter asked sitting beside him. "Can I rewrap that wound of yours?"

"Y..yes.." Asher replied as Carter began to unwrap the gauze and he cleaned up the wound. Asher winced and whined but was thankful that he stopped for a moment to check him over. To ensure he was okay. "I'm okay.. just stings. I'm sorry.. I shouldn't have.. I shouldn't have done it and I put you through it... I keep messing up."

"Are you here with me right now?" Carter asked narrowing his eyes.

"Yes.. I am."

"Then you're okay."

Asher smiled at him, and then looked down at himself as Carter finally wrapped him up completely. Asher snuggled into him, he was warm, and oddly comfortable to him. There were times that he feared him so much, but other times he showed him so much love. "I.. I want to finish that man off, by myself so you don't have to worry about it. You said you wanted out, no more killing. I'm trying to understand and trying to accept that."

Asher looked up in surprise, he hadn't expected him to allow Asher out of killing. "Wait.. but.. you.. you wanted us to do it together."

"I did but I know.. I know right now its not what you want. Maybe in the future you'll change your mind again and want to kill with me again. I just.. I'm starting to get it I guess. I always make you do what I want, I just.. I I am sorry Ash for dragging you into all of this. The way we came together, what we did. We killed my sister, I know you didn't actually want me then. I know you didn't."

Asher looked up at him in surprise. "You..you did?"

"I did, but I wanted you so badly. Never got to explore my sexuality right, I watched my uncle rape plenty of men and women but I didn't really participate. When I met you.. well it was different. At first I just had a rage, that you took my wife but.. I was wrong. When Alex made me punish you through rape it.. it wasn't what I thought it would be. It felt more right with you than with Valery ever did. I just.. when you gave me the option to have you, even if it was fake to you it was real to me."

Asher was shaking in his hold. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be, I know what I did to you." He ran his hand along Asher's scar covered body. "I'm lucky you're mine today. I'm surprised you didn't walk when I let you."

Asher laid into him. "I need her name gone."

"What?"

"I need her name gone." Asher said again. "Please.. take it off."

"Honey, that scars deep. I can't."

"Take it off." Asher cried again. "I can't.. I can't handle it anymore."

"How?"

"I don't know... I just want it gone.."

Carter thought for a moment looking over the wound for a moment. He lined his sisters name with his finger.

Alex

Carter.

"Fine I will fix it, but you're asking for this."

Asher nodded as Carter laid him flat on his stomach and tied his wrists together and over the bed, and then his legs. He straddled him and grabbed his knife before sliding a gag in his mouth. He was thankful that the letters were moved in ways he could fit his in. "Alright.. I'm gonna do it now."

Asher nodded his head. He knew he was crazy, but he just had to get rid of her from his body. He was spiraling and feeling insane and that felt fitting for the relationship he was in. Carter began to drag his knife over him.

C.

Asher sobbed under him but wanted him to keep going. He moved between the a and the l, thankful he could put an R in between without opening old scars. He lined it out and then slashed a line in the L making his T. He moved next to the last R. The X would make it a tad difficult. He used the preexisting lines to finish it up. Asher was shaking under him but at least Alex was gone from him now. Carter cleaned it up and wrapped it hoping it would heal fine. "Why?"

Asher looked him over. "Belong to you not her, we came together by killing her. She should be gone from me too.."

Carter blinked at him. "You're crazy."

"Coming from someone who has been killing since he was two."

Carter smirked as he turned on the TV, Asher's story was still important but new things were going on. "Should we finish that kill, and your uncle and stop?"

Asher looked up in surprise. "Stop stop? You mean actually stop killing?"

"Yeah.. stop just cold turkey. You'll help me with my bad days right? That ass of yours needs me doesn't it?"

Asher's face flushed in surprise. "I will help you.."

"What about Valery?"

"I.. she wanted to kill me.. wanted me dead but.. I also.. also don't.. don't think we should kill her. Those kids have their own lives, people who love them outside us. I want kids.. but I don't think it's right. How would we do it? Kidnapping isn't something I really want to do."

Carter cupped his cheek. "You're too good for me, for this world little one."

Asher smiled lowering his eyes. "I'm sorry.. for everything I've done.. Thank you for the things you've done for me."

"I'd do anything for you. As bright or dark as it has to be, and if that means I have to leave my children behind to live with their bitch of a mother I can handle that."

"I.. I want to give you something. You have to let us go right after though, please."

"What baby?"

"I want us to get married by your families standards. Go back and get married there, and then leave.. never go back."

Carter nodded. "You'd do that for me?"

"I've messed up a lot, and I know it would make you happy."

"I would be okay with that darling." Carter smiled kissing him softly. "You're all mine now." He looked over his bloody wraps, his sisters hands on his boy finally gone. "First you heal, I will finish that kill, and we can talk about your uncle he may not even be alive." Asher nodded as he was laid down carefully. "Sleep now. I will be back."