My Time (5sos Ashton fanfic)

The Feeling of Numbness

Everything was a blur. Sirens screamed around the house. All you knew is that Ashton was alive. That was all that mattered. You were numb all over. Ignoring the outside world, ignoring Calum's worried voice, trying to ignore the firm hands that had gripped your shoulders.

Until they they ripped you away from your boyfriends body. That's when you realized you were screaming. Wailing. An endless waterfall of tears streaming down your face. Through the salty liquid you could see bright uniforms pick up Ashton's body and put him on a stretcher. You tried to reach out for him but Calum came and blocked your view.

He was talking to you. Saying something that didn't matter. You could see his mouth moving but you didn't care. You longed for everyone to be gone. Everyone to just go away and leave you with Ashton. But Ashton had disappeared. They had taken him somewhere. They had taken your love away from you.

You felt hands on your shoulders again. Calum's hands.

"Open your eyes Y/N" he pleaded

You didn't know you had closed them. You shook your head. Sobbing.

"Please Y/N! I need you here with me!" Calum's voice was panicked. You hated to hear him so frantic.

"A-A-A-Ash-Ashton" you whimper between sobs.

"He's going to be okay Y/N" Calum put his arms around you and lifted you up. You didn't know what was happening. All there was was an image. A picture burning in your brain of Ashton's blood against the tiles. The way it stood out next to the white. White on red. Red on white.

Your head was buried in Calum's chest as you whimpered. When you next opened your eyes , you saw that you were in an ambulance. Calum had laid you down up against the inside of the vehicle. It was empty and you started to panic. Where was everyone?! Where was Ashton?!

Suddenly Michael appeared through the open doors of the ambulance. He took one look at you and strode over to help you stand.

"Ashton..." You cry into his arms.

"Hey I know baby girl. But he will be fine. Ashton is strong. He will pull through." Mikey reassured you.

It only made you cry harder.

"Why did this happen to him?" You wailed into his shirt, asking no one in particular. "He's so sweet and caring. He doesn't deserve anything like this." Your voice was muffled through Michaels shirt.

You could feel tears drop onto your back and soak through your top. Michaels tears. "I don't know Y/N...I don't know."

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