I wake up every morning with my head trapped in my maze wanted to say this- fuck it I'll say it anyways. Everybody is trying to tell me that I'm going through a phase.
"It's not a- FUCKING PHASE I JUST WANTED TO FEEL OK!"
Ok, generations of depression remain the same, there's no question keep fucking going insane. The traumatic influence, crazy stimulation rage, the death of my mother- STILL REMAINS!
"SHUT THE FUCK UP IT'S NOT A PHASE I WANT TO FEEL OK!"
YEAH- I have struggles everyday, my demons creating hallucinations in my brain. To obliterate me, shoot me, kill me, ANNIHILATES ME!
"I AM FUCKING BREAKING DOWN, WHAT IS THE WAY OUT?!"
Don't call me the liar, or creator, for having a messy behavior. Not your little girl, I am a fucking MONSTER!
"I'M FUCKING BREAKING DOWN, SEARCHING FOR THE WAY OUT."
(I'm tearing myself apart.)
"NOT YOUR LITTLE GIRL- LITTLE GIRL, A MONSTER!"
I feel as if I'm not going anywhere, I'm trapped in a cage. The walls grow higher trying to keep my steady pace. How do I escape this place just to close my cage.
Just to keep on stressing- every minute of my day goes to waste I hate your blessings just to make me break. All my therapist always told me "everythings gonna be ok."
"EVERYTHINGS NOT GONNA BE OK- WHEN I'M FULL OF RAGE!"
Okay now it looks like I got your attention. Stop telling me to change thinking something that's missing is fucking people trying to telling me try and survive, I just wanted to die everything was a lie nothing is fine I'm closer to my grave- I'M TERRIFIED AFRAID TO TRUST THIS WORLD AGAIN!
"I DROPPED MY GUARD JUST TO FEEL AGAIN!"
TAKE ME OUT OF MY MISERY SO I CAN LIVE PEACEFULLY DON'T BREAK ME!
"I'M ABOUT TO FUCKING BREAK DOWN- CAN YOU TAKE ME OUT!"
I AM A CHEATER, A REPEATER, I'M THE GRIM REAPER!
"NOT YOUR LITTLE GIRL- LITTLE GIRL A MONSTER!"
I BROKE DOWN- FALLING IN LOVE JUST TO FALL APART!
"I'M A LITTLE MOTHER FUCKING MONSTER!"
YEAH! YEAH, I'LL DO IT AGAIN MOTHER FUCKER!
"I'M SICK- SICK AND TIRED OF PRAYING TO SOMEONE WHO TOOK WHAT WAS A PART OF ME!"
SEARCH FOR HELP THAT I DON'T NEED- THE TRUTH IS WHAT I FOUND!
"THE QUESTION THAT REMAINS, WHY DID YOU TAKE MY BEST FRIEND FROM ME!"
CUZ I'M ABOUT TO BREAK DOWN, TO SEARCH FOR MY WAY OUT!
I'M A CHEATER, A REPEATER, THE GRIM REAPER!
"I'M NOT YOUR LITTLE GIRL I'M JUST A MONSTER!"
YOU MADE ME BREAK DOWN FALLING INTO ASHES JUST TO FALL APART!
"I WAS A LITTLE GIRL- BUT NOW I'M A MONSTER!"
(Now I'm a liar, and a cheater, the Grim Reaper.)
"NOT A LITTLE GIRL- BUT NOW A MONSTER!"
YOU ARE READING
𝐌𝐲 𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐬 (𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤)
PoetryAcid on my vocals, that's the price I gotta pay... Once they fucked me over, no do-overs, I don't play - Reluctancy I get it- but you know it ain't the same...
