𝐌𝐲 𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐬 (𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤)

How Long

I thought I could find a way outside, as it would all drive me insane

Oh, it won't be long till my mind breaks inside of here
Thought it would stop but I'm stuck inside this cage living in constant fear

Where could I go to run and hide but there's nowhere to go that's near
How does it feel to be alive outside this house but I can't find my heart it's broken once more for a thousand times this year

Is it just me all along as my heart is broken trying to smile and be strong through it all
Tearing me to pieces wishing to not be so alone 

I knew it was death to us all 

Wishing to go back in time to look where it went wrong for a better place

People always ask me what's on my mind

"I'm always searching for a quiet space."

But we all know some things happen to make you feel worthless and shake in constant fear

It won't take all night for me it lasted for so many years 
I always ran away to hide but now I'm lost in my thought screaming in my ears 
I want to feel alive outside my mind but I cowered in fear 

How ironically to feel alone my heart would always shatter while my mind would blame me for so long 

Once again it tore me to pieces in the wound

But for how long will I be able to be whole...