⚠️ Sexual abuse ⚠️
I remember it clear as day
What he did to me
The man who was supposed to love me most
Is the man who hurt me most
I was only 4
When my father touched my body
I was so scared
I was so confused
Why?
Why did it have to be me?
Why couldn't I have a father who loved me?
I'm 15 now
It still hurts
When the memories come rushing back at night
When the memories make me cry myself to sleep
When the memories paralyze me
When the memories make me unable to feel anything but fear
When I ask why it's happening
When I say "daddy please stop"
When I tell him I'm scared
I never get a response
Not until it's over and I realize that it wasn't real
When I realize that it was just my PTSD
That made it feel so real again
YOU ARE READING
Not faking it
PoetryYou can't just snap out of it You can't just think happy thoughts And you can't just hope it goes away The truth is It eats you alive Makes you feel hopeless, worthless, unwanted, and unneeded It makes you want to die rather than live with it And y...
