I'll protect you forever (Bokuaka)

PTSD

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️
*mentions of abuse rape and torture*

Akaashi's pov

"Tanaka? There's no way that's his voice" I began to pace "why would he? How could he? When did he? What?" my voice frantic and shaky.

My mind was racing with a million questions a minute there's no way it Tanaka they have to be wrong they have to be... right?

I feel Bokuto squeeze on my hand and I think he's saying something but my mind is to focused on my thoughts to take any notice. AKAASHI?!" I hear Kenma yell as he leaves Kuroo's side to pull me out of a Bokuto's reach "hey hey Keiji look at me look at me you have to breath okay" Kenma pleads, I try to focus as I feel my hands reach for his.

As my thoughts wonder again my grip on Kenma's small paws tighten and he winces in pain. "Kenma? You okay" Kuroo asks trying to step forward to break the bond between our hands. As he tries he's stopped by Iwaizumi and Oikawa who then stare him down till he backs off, think what you want but Oikawa if he wanted to, could kill anyone and Iwaizumi enough said.

"Keiji look at me please you need to breath okay please just calm down they are just bad thoughts don't let them control you. Bokuto do you have Akihiko's number?"

"Ughh Yeh yeh I think so?"

"Call him here now!"

-time skip-

"Kenma?! Where are you guys?" Akihiko yells out as he enters the house.

"In the living room!" Kenma yells back.

3rd person pov

"Kenma are you able to let go of his hands?" Akihiko asked carefully stepping towards his brother and Kenma.

"No his grips too tight I think he's broken my left hand" Kenma slightly wined not paying enough attention to the pain he's feeling in concern for his friend.

"Okay ugh... ummm... Keiji it's me Akihiko you're twin" Akihiko spoke in a soft and comforting tone.

Akaashi slightly gentles his grasp on Kenma's hands as he partially snaps out of his panic "Hiko?" Akaashi asked.

"Yeh Keiji it's me Hiko do you think you could let go of Kenma's hands?" Akihiko asks.

"No no no I can't do that" Akaashi freaks again as his grip tightens again.

"Hey hey hey it's okay. Can you tell me why you can't let go? Can you do that for me?" The worry in Akihiko causes his eyes to glass over holding back his tears so he can pull his brother out of this panic.

"If ..." Akaashi begins to stutter "if.. if I let go then he's gonna hurt him. I ... I can go through it again but he can't" tears begin to stream down Akaashi's face.

Akihiko uses all his strength to not break down in tears in front of his brother, Kenma's eyes begin to fill to the brim with tears trying not to let them fall but fails, Bokuto has a look on his face as if all he wants to do is run up behind Akaashi and hug him so tight he forgets anything and everything that is causing him pain while everyone else in the rooms faces were painted with concern Kuroo's and Oikawa's especially worrying for a friend and a boyfriend's safety.

"Who's gonna get hurt again Akaashi?" Akihiko asks terrified for the answer.

"Hikaru".

Kenma's and Akihiko's eyes widen as they realise what's going on.

"Who's that?" Bokuto questions Akihiko "Akihiko who is Hikaru?!" Bokuto's voice cracked with a hint of anger.

"Akaashi's ex-boyfriend" Akihiko's voice became a whimper.