Jealous || SoonHoon, Jihan, Chancheol

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Jihoon/Woozi's POV

We're at our third special event here on GV called "Break of Dawn". Every member is really excited to meet our carat's once again, the same goes for me also. I may not be good with expressing my feelings on words, but I know that they can see and hear it through the songs that I wrote. I'm glad that our fans understand my feelings for them but why can't he notice anything...? 

We've been a group for a few years now and every year is getting harder and harder. I think that I'm falling deeper and deeper and I think that I can no longer hide this feelings of mine...but what will we do if they're not there to catch us in the end? 

Yes, it's a 'We' not only me. I also know some of the members that likes another member of the group but can't also express it. But, I think that my problem is bigger since I don't know how this things work since I mostly live in my studio and I never had a real dating experience. sigh.

Will things work out for me?

"Woozi-ah, why are you poking your food? Aren't you hungry?" Wonwoo asked which interrupted my thoughts. sigh, thinking about this is making my head ache

"Ah...no, I lost my appetite" I said then walked out

I saw the looks of the other members that were with me on the table and they looked confused. The ones that were at the table with me were Jeonghan hyung, Seokmin-ah, Wonwoo of course, then Hoshi...

hah...I need to lean on someone right now, my head is throbbing. It hurts...

Dino/Chan's POV

I just finished explaining in front of the camera about our event in GV which will be posted on our Going Seventeen.

Once I entered our waiting room, I immediately took off and headed to the bathroom which resulted to attract everyone's attention but I didn't mind them and closed the door of the bathroom. 

sigh. What the hell am I doing here hiding? My feelings already invisible in his eyes and now I'm hiding myself more? 

What's the point in loving if you can't be with the one you love? They'll just hurt you by seeing them happy with someone else so why bother on loving them?

Sometimes....I want to forget...Forget that I ever loved this man...Forget all the pain that he caused me...Forget him and lived happily without the pain in my heart.

But how can I do that If we're together everyday? How can I get over you if you keep on popping out everywhere I go? How can I forget you if your always giving me hope...?

How will you fix my broken heart huh? *chuckles* But why does he have to fix it? I'm the one who fell in love...I'm the one who choose him...I'm the one...who held on to him. 

How can I let go now...?

Wondering why I'm thinking of all this right now? Because the first thing that I saw when I got back here on our waiting room is Seungcheol hyung...With Jeonghan hyung having fun in their own little world and doesn't mind the people around them. As if they were the only one in the world. As if they were in a novel and they were the main characters and the spotlight always go after them while I'm me...an extra who's always unnoticeable. but...good thing is that joshua hyung isn't still here so he won't have to bear this pain I'm feeling right now.

Joshua hyung has been in love with his bestfriend...every since trainee days. They were always together back then...but now...he mostly just talks to seungcheol hyung. It's as if Joshua hyung was the third wheel of the 95 liners. Joshua hyung has been bearing this pain for a few years now and I'm really amazed that he can still hold on to this feelings of his. For me, Joshua hyung is the one that has suffered a lot. Firstly because his far away from his parents and I know that there are also some members that are far away from their home but Joshua hyung's case is  different. Unlike Jun and The8 hyung who is in a relationship right now, Joshua hyung doesn't have someone special who will love him in romantic way that can make his heart race every time they meet or see each other. His alone and lonely. Unlike me, I have many hyungs that are giving me plenty of attention...maybe a little too much attention but I'm glad that they do care for me.