Jealous || SoonHoon, Jihan, Chancheol

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"What if...I go through the surgery?" Dino stated that confused Joshua.

"What? What surgery???" Joshua asked.

Dino hesitated but still said it.

"What if...I go through surgery to remove this in me..?" Dino carefully explained what he meant which really shocked Joshua.

"WHAT?! Are you insane?! Do you know what happens when you do that?!" Joshua shouted in shock. He didn't want that to happen to Dino too.

Okay, to cut the long story short, Joshua's relative from the states also had this disease and in the end, that person forgot everything he felt for the person he liked, including all of his memories of him. He didn't recognize him nor even remember him being his best friend and all time crush.

Joshua didn't want that to happen to Dino too and forget all of his memories with s.coups.

Dino flashed a small smile then said...

"I want the pain to stop hyung...I just really can't take it anymore." As he speak, his tears slowly falls from his eyes while he tries his best to smile through the pain.

"But Dino-ah..." Joshua tried to refute but he couldn't think of a possible reason to stop Dino anymore, it was completely hopeless.

Joshua stared at the younger and he can clearly see the pain, the suffering, and mostly the hopelessness of the younger from his eyes.

"Its useless hyung, whether I forget or not, he still won't ever come to love me...because in this lifetime, its still not me but someone else..." Dino spoke, completely hurt.

Joshua couln't say nor do anything, because he felt like Dino needed someone to listen; And he clearly uderstands his feelings right now.

"I tried to do everything, I tried making him notice me but everytime, its always him! Why does it have to be him and not me?!! Just why?!!!" Dino lets out his frustrations and real feelings like there's no tomorrow.

Until he suddenly stopped.

He stoped crying.

He stoped shouting.

He stoped complaining...

All there was...was silence.

"Why...do we have to go through all of this..?" Dino spoke again that made Joshua look at him.

"We just...wanted love. Is it that much to ask..?" Joshua stated which surprised Dino a little bit.

Joshua's been silent on his side ever since earlier but now he suddenly spoke which startle Dino.

"Its tiring right?" Dino asked as he look at the older one beside him who nodded as he tries not to let his tears fall, but he still failed to do so.

"its just so tiring too keep on trying.." Joshua stated.

I tried my best...I tried my very best to keep on holding on..." Joshua trailed off.

"But you think its time that we stop...right?" Dino continued for the older since he thinks that it might be too hard for his hyung to say so himself.

Joshua smiled though it was painful for him to admit it himself.

"I don't want to keep on burdening myself with this feelings that I have for him..." Joshua admitted as he felt the sharp pain from his heart, saying that his heart...can no longer take the pain.

"Its just so hard too keep on hoping, trying, and doing my best to be okay when I'm totally not. I tried my best to smile but deep down its hurts like hell!!!" Joshua expressed his emotions and poured every bit of anger and pain that he has in him.