The Hidden Feeling

Chapter nineteen

         The Hidden Feeling Part One

It was his first year in high school, feeling anxious and restless kyuhyun decided to go to the music room. His favorite place where he can feel a little better, with heavy feats he heads towards the piano dragging his long fingers across the piano top with a sad expression, today is the day of the finals! Packed with endless tests, but that isn’t the reason for his gloomy mind or heartache he’s being feeling all day long, in fact he loves exams! With a sorrowful face kyuhyun sit on the floor lining his back on the pianos leg

He did once again promises himself to not feel sad or self-pity, but today is his mother third monorail anniversary, and he misses her so much that he feels his ribcage will explodes from the whole sadness, and sorrow that is gathering inside him

Kyuhyun Pulled his knees closer to his chest, hugs them with his arms while placing his heavy head on top, he sighs feeling depressed for not being able to visit his mother grave this year, usually he well just skip class and go but today happened to the finals and he want to maintain his scholarship, since he didn’t want to relay on his so called father he got himself a seat in one of the biggest musical high schools out there by hard work

In the silent room only his muffed subs can be heard, immerged in his whipping kyuhyun didn’t notice a person have entered the music room, The new comer settled himself is next to him observing, a delicate touch on top of his head alert him from his place but still keeping his head down thinking he most lost his mine to be imagining stuff now, but a several gentle pats on his head makes him jolt his head upwards instantly

With his blurred vision from the waited tears in his puffed eyes, kyuhyun couldn’t identifies the person in front of him he squint his eyes for a better sight. Kyuhyun eyes gawked wide open when he recognized the person if front of him, ‘it can’t be…’ kyuhyun gazed at jongwoon face intensely staring at him with disbelieve ‘…jongwoon’

Their eyes met each other observing each other faces, kyuhyun jolt when jongwoon let out a loud laugh from his pinkish lips, kyuhyun face is a total mess tears bubbling heavily from both corners of his eyes, mucus sliding down from his red nose, a thin line of saliva connecting his slightly apart puffy lips
‘is he really jongwoon?!!’ Kyuhyun took him a few seconds to grasp the situation, blinks his glassy eyes while frowning his brows together and purses his lips, he slaps jongwoon hand away from the top of his head, ‘WHAT Did I just do?!!’

With an apologetic smile his long time crush mumbled, “a...am sorry I didn't mean to laugh at you..." While rubbing his hand kyuhyun felt guilty immediately for slapping jongwoon cute small hands, that he always admires his eyebrows got even closer to each other with a worried face, he was about to talk but jongwoon beats him to it “I... I... really didn’t...”

He cut him off “fuck you!!! I don't need your shit” kyuhyun curses himself in his mind while wiping his salty tears ‘what the hell did I just say?!!’ his cheeks elevated red when Jongwoon pointed with his short finger at his philtrum "Yo... you have something there to..." With an awkward smile

Kyuhyun huffs out of annoyance feeling like a fool, ‘it’s our first time talking to each other and I’ve have already embarrassed myself!!!!’ kyuhyun rubbed his philtrum with his sleeve, ‘if he’s my jongwoon… but why is he here…?’ while looking intensely at jongwoon kyuhyun asked something he already know just to distract himself from too much staring, “who are you anyway”

Jongwoon face twisted painfully at kyuhyun wiping his wet nose with his sleeve, jongwoon shakes his head while clearing his throat before answering kyuhyun “don’t you remember me?”
“No " kyuhyun replies with a plan face ‘of course I do…’

“Oh well I guess I can't blame you... since you rarely attend the music club activities..." kyuhyun heart clinched at the sight of jongwoon sad smile, ‘I still can read his face like a book…’

“Even if I saw you every day I won't remember you" kyuhyun turned his face away from jongwoon puppy eyes ‘what a weirdo’ while standing up ‘I’m really fucked up… why do I keep saying this stuff to him’ with a cute pout jongwoon feels irritated he jumped on his feet finding their faces only an inch away from each other, his face straightaway turned red kyuhyun breathes easily after jongwoon spines his heels around, but his heart was about to stop when jongwoon starts walking away

Kyuhyun grabbed jongwoon wrist immediately stopping him from leave, not knowing why he hold jongwoon from leaving, ‘what I’m doing I should let him leave…’ kyuhyun released his wrist with his flushed cheeks “Yo...You still didn't answer my question..." kyuhyun felt much better after seeing jongwoon face all his anxiety have had gone, ‘don’t go…’

“You know that I’m your senior and you should start speaking formal to me!” Kyuhyun raise his eyebrows surprised while checking jongwoon from head to toe “you’re kidding right” he chuckled ‘it can’t be…right’

Jongwoon puff his cheeks feeling frustrated “How dare you!! am two years older than, for your information!” while crossing his arms and turning his head with a hum sound, Kyuhyun laughed at the cute act of his cute small Hyung ‘he still the same cute chubby boy’ with a smirk he pulled jongwoon cheeks “You don't even look like your age” while twisting his cheeks like he always wanted to ever since he saw him

Jongwoon taps on kyuhyun hand while screamed “ahaw ahaw iht's huurth!!!” Kyuhyun released jongwoon poor red cheeks while laughing, ‘so cute~’ Jongwoon rubes his swollen red cheeks with his small hands, “What do you think you're doing, you brat!” With tears in his eyes, Kyuhyun tilted his head with an amused smirk on his lips “You’re just so easy to bully~”