Break Apart

CHAPTER #16 (felt jealous)

*SHYRENEJJ*

-Ram(POV)-

Even how hard to admit I still forced my self to commit that words I don't know where from that guts but I'm happy that I did it.
The way my sight on her I notice that her eyes glittering I don't want to predict 'cause I felt that she like me,too.
Well, we just knowing most each other so it's not maybe 'LOVE' it's 'LIKE' yet.
We're still walking until she complain

"Can we back now,I'm tired"-I laugh with her reaction how cute to see her pouted-

"At once?.Thara,you present to walk now you want to back?"

"I'm tired"

"If you will  I lift you?"

"what? I'm not injured"

"But you're tired"

She smirk "No! it's okay.I'm okay"

"Okay,let's get back"

We started to step backward I want to hold her hands but I'm failed to do and it's hard to do.I'm in a state of panicking.I don't know if what part of my body has a problem, my heart thus throbbing for her but not totally proven or yet, my mind admitting  her name likewise not too,proven.
How hard to do? I'm full of guts to confess but to hold her hand I'm lost.We're not yet in a relationship but I want to do this Fuck! this is the part that I hate more.I want to do what I want but, I'm so nervous to step up.
I can't really endure that's why I try but when my hand began to move her phone reverberating shit! unperfected!.
Thara demonstrating as a signed to get away.Suddenly my face become somber why she need to answered this in a distant?
I can't heard what they're talking but when I look Thara she was smiling.Shit! is this a sign for proving that I love her?.I tried to enter in a relationship but I'll never acted like this when I'm with Thea,I'll never tried to felt jealous or to  become sad when she conversing on phone.

After that call,Thara start to move again towards me.I find my self asking
or confirming whose calling?

"Who's that?"

"Ah!"

"The one who call you"

"Ah!"

"What ah!? I'm asking"-I won't succeed to hide what I feel.Yeah I'm disgusted-

She laugh"Is that for real? are you jealous,Ram?"

"what?your crazy! Of course I'm not jealous!"-My words become emphatically-

"Sureness?"she confirming

"Of course! what would I?"

"Well, you don't need to be jealous it's Thea my best friend.Besides your feelings still not proven right Mr.Ram?" I don't know my moods began to change when I heard a name Thea

"Thea?"

"Yeah! Ops, don't tell me are you trying to confirm if it's a boy or girl.Ram, the name Thea is just for girl"

"What is her full name"I look Thara and she confused

"Ah! I had a friend same on the name of your friend.I'm just asking for confirming if the one that I think now is also the one who called on you"

"Ah! Her full name was Thea Hermoz"

"Thea Hermoz?"-I ask repeatedly-

"Yeah! Thea Hermoz why?.Is their the same"

"What?"

"Your friend and my friend.They are the same name?"

"Ah! N-no!"

"Well, there's no having the same full name in this world.Maybe in first name there was but with the same complete name I guess there's no"

My system become gonewild because of that name.Thara was right there's no having the same name.
While walking my mind still focusing on Thea what if she's that girl  from my past and so, what if  we destined to meet again because of Thara.I began to love Thara and I don't want to change what I've feel because of that nonsense girl.
I didn't noticed that Thara ceased to walk that's why I rebut on her shit! in front.

"Ram what happened to you?"-she asking worriedly-

"Y-yeah I'm f-fine"I tried to keep but she still notice

"I know you're not, what's wrong?"

"Maybe I felt worn, too."-I lied-

She laugh"See! you had overly guts to tease me but the fact you're tired also"

"I'll go ahead you don't need to take me home.Just take a rest."-After on what she said she continued to walk towards her room-
She waved her hands for the last time and I just smiled as my response.

I also continuing in walking towards my room when I reached it I lay my body's down.
The name of Thara's friend graze again to my mind I still wondering who's her? but the fuck! thing annoyed me is instead I project Thara that fucking! name and shit! girl are placed on my mind.

You're demented Ram! stop it!